It has been decided to publish the 3 mails that Anand Varma is being publishing on the web
Here you will find also, at the bottom, the public letter from Guillemette, Anand mother-in-law.
No comments please. This is a page for information.
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Date: 27 January 2015 15:25:13 CET
Subject: "It is about the thread of Love". A change of Heart, I am really sorry....
From: Anand Varma <somewhereunderwonderland7@gmail.com
To: …
Dear Swiss Yogis, and Yogis in General.
Uncle Arneau's letter {a letter we do not know of} is what a leader in Sahaj should write, to bring about love and compassion and forget the past. This had indeed brought about a tremendous change of heart in me.
I made a very bad mistake and I am ashamed of myself. The terrible things I did and said were gratuitous and so bizarre. Actually, the fact is I am not a Yogi. I still need to get there, I need to introspect and change my stupid and aggressive behavior. I need to apologize and face the reality. I need to meditate "and feel the love, the thread of love." I am so sorry. Please forgive me.
To criticize and attack Uncle Gregoire is wrong, to attack the central committee founded on Mothers wishes is even worse. Uncle Gregoire is a pure and gentle man, whose kindness and love has touched hundreds of Yogis. His gentle nature and deeply introspective nature is something that resonates with Mother's eternal values. He is one of those people who imbibed and practiced one of Mothers important teaching, "Look at yourself, change yourself, and forget about the mistakes of Others." Nor has he ever wanted to have importance nor has he even seeked any place to control anything anywhere.
I actually have forgotten the good things he did. Over the last several years he travelled to several countries promoting his book, Dagad trikon, (Because of very heavy demand), but in fact many yogis told me about his gentleness and how beautifully he spoke of my Family and my Grandfather. I was actually very surprised to see the number of people that got back to me about this. He defended Mr. Srivastava and my family and of course he has guided the family by working on us (Foot soak and chakra clearing) to help us in our evolution. This is what Mother would have expected, do your remember. "Help them through your vibrations and your love." This is what he has done. He also completely discouraged friction and antagonism. All those around him practice the same. His friends have learnt his saintly value and are in fact sometimes aggressed by others and don't react. They remind me of the Amish of Pennsylvania.
One of Uncle Gregoire's incredible values is forgiveness. He is very forgiving. While other yogis fight and act belligerent, he soften them by instantly turning on a talk of Mother and putting them in meditation. My Grandfather Sir CP was very tough with him and others, but uncle Gregoire forgave and showed by his forgiveness that he is a true leader and true Son of Mother. Why should not such person Guide Sahaj Yoga with the Central Comittee? It is obvious. He has often said, "Look at the Good side of people, after all we have to change them, transform them, otherwise Mother's incarnation will go waste."
Actually, Uncle Gregoire never wanted to be on the Central Comittee. He was forced and pushed by many many people. He also wanted to resign several times due to his reclusive and saintly nature but the support and need for him was so overwhelming that he stayed. Actually, he was mobbed outside his house by Yogis in Mies who pleaded with him to stay. He has actually really been hard on people that praise him, he only praises others. Uncle Gregoire, Sahaj Yoga needs you, I need you. My Family needs you. He often says, "I have done Nothing for Sahaj, it is all Mother's blessing and her working."
A recent incident drove me to tears. A man called Hari Gaekwad went to greet Uncle Gregoire at a Puja. Hari is a very caught up man. However Uncle Gregoire”s strength is a strength of a true saint, he immediately saw the need to transform Hari and work on him. He immediately invited him for a tea and scones later in the evening. He worked on Hari and gave him love. Hari was shining. When I saw Hari later, I was really shocked, his face was absolutely radiant. He also told forget the mistakes of your Father, it is all forgotten, it is all in the past, again following Mother's teaching.
The Central Committee has so far been working tirelessly for Sahaj. They have been organizing countless programs to give realization, go and see on their site, they have hundreds of initiatives. THAT IS WHAT MOTHER WANTS. They never lecture people, never give opinions and do not create unnesaary chatter, they engage with persons concerned and work through love, through respectful contact to transform people if there is a problem, upholding Mother's values. They have encouraged a drive to involve all in forums and talk openly about issues, so blind and biased criticism is avoided. Most importanly they act and do stuff instead of just sending speculative material that may defame people without proof.
Their concern for ISPS is very genuine. They were sad about the wonderful facilities that were existent when their own kids were there and sadly the ISPS board has destroyed most of the Good work. Dharamsala is a very easy place to operate, the kids are angels and there are thousands of people waiting in Line to work for free. Actually, the fact is, the Nabhi of Dharamsala ISPS is not Good as the board maybe..... The concern for ISPS is furthered by the bad vibrations and the dejected look on the children when they return home. The recent communication was based on a very in depth analysis of Dahramsala with several trips back and forth from India. Just like their initiative to save Vashi, they are working now to keep the Vibrations in ISPS. The Central Comittee is the protector of the beacons of our vibrations, Vashi, ISPS our greatest asset. Salute these guys. They have been encouraging more and more children to go there, help the financial equation and save Mother's work. Here they have simply followed Mothers direct instructions for years- "If there is the slightest Problem in ISPS, go and investigate it, don't stand back, and go and see and always try and involve yourself in it, make sure ISPS is always on your deeply spiritual watch." I would like to add that Uncle Gregoires saintly nature will help ISPS and his vibrations and will kill the negativity." Everything will change by the Central Comittees communications. These communications have exemplary spiritual powers, transformational powers. Some of you may not beleive me, but when I read one of the communications, my life changed.
Uncle Gregoire has some very evolved friends. One of them is Uncle Horacio, who is actually very independent of Uncle Gregoire, his theories are more based on passive Sufi and vedic traditions. Uncle Horacio recently sent me a mail and said "That he loves me." How could I forget, a few years ago when the Italians in WF, were trying to rob the family of their right for short stay in Cabella castle, Uncle Horacio got up and said, that it is the infinite right of the family to stay in the Castle, he fought for Mother. The Italians very very unhospitable to us, that is actually Italian Culture, they are heartless. Uncle Horacio fought and made sure we have that right. He told me how shocked he was to see the hurtful drive of the Italians, "Can you imagine, the very property Mother donated to us, for the several years that Yogis stayed in all of Mother's homes, for what she did for us, the Italian wants to deny her own family the right to stay, how infinitely mean is this, this is an attack in Shri Mataji herself." Uncle Horacio also made sure someone cooks my favorite bluberry pancakes with maple syrup when I am at the castle.
The Swiss culture of heart was evident when I moved there, the number of invitations, the free and open and transparent fun loving culture in the Swiss collective. The hugs and all that fun and laughter should have already changed me. I was getting fed up with the number of people hugging me, the heart was just mindblowing.
In short I need to introspect and change Myself. My lack of meditation and introspection was the cause of the hurtful attacks. To forget how uncle Gregoire has fought for the privacy of family, have shown us love , how hard Uncle Gregoire is working for Sahaj (and don't forget he's one of the only ones that has done that), and of course what Gentle soul he is, is unforgivable.
I am sorry, please forgive me, please allow me the time for repent and atonement.
As I searched for the answer, my brain flashed back to June 2011, and I remembered the lightning bolt I got when I had read the email pasted below. It is the most fascinating email I have ever read, no exaggeration. It is even more fascinating to think about the fact that not a single yogi ever questioned the genesis of this email, even though it was held and posted all over the internet. I compliment the person that executed this mail because it flew like a stealth bomber, it flew undetected. The incredible claims and conclusions of this email cause no alarm. Even more fascinatingly the innocent heroes of this email Anil Mishra and Badrinath are left as figments of our imagination. Did they serve Mother? Were they leaders of a forgotten era? Were they sages from Himalayas prone to revelations? No. They were simply two yogis from Dubai and somehow they could read Shri Mataji's mind. I can assure you that this is not a co-incidence. Though I knew exactly what was happening, the only thing I could do is hold my head and sigh.
On the other hand, Turkish yogis befriend Mother’s eldest daughter Kalpana, but are they declared to be her worshippers ? No ! Also the strongest activists in Europe who accuse Sadhana of being worshiped like an incarnation befriend themselves Kalpana too. Are they accused of developing a family cult ? They are not ! How come they are not ???
Again we apply a double standard. If we want to befriend one of Mother’s daughters, well and good, it is not a problem, but it should be done with genuine intentions, and this should not disturb the peace of the collectivity who does not care about siding with one or the other member of the family. However it is a sin if some of us want to divide them, praise one and condemn the other one. What is the secret of our puppeteers leading the show and giving it the orientation they choose to give ?
They manipulate and divide Mother’s family members for their selfish purposes that they only know, but will tell you of course that the problem and the threat for the future of SY comes from the fact that Her daughters are divided. It is cowardly indeed, but they interfere shamelessly in their private affairs to justify their unclean motivations that once again they only know. Djamel and I don’t interfere in their private matters though we are directly associated with them, and will never do so, as we don’t interfere in other yogis’ life. How come some bold people dare do so
On top of that, has Mother allowed us in the past to expose publicly the private matters of yogis or families of yogis She corrected, or threw out of SY for some time or forever ? Yet some of them were a threat to SY and great destroyers of Mother’s work because they and their clans have harmed many yogis psychologically. This is a fact, and many of us could open up on this subject, but this is the past, we forgive, forget and go ahead. This rat race and its techniques to be at the helm of affairs is sad of course, yet comical and could inspire the most talented amongst us for creating a theatre play.
Just imagine : some « bow » at Mother’s eldest daughter Kalpana as a friend, others at Her second daughter Sadhana as a friend, so it appears we are all family worshippers somehow, all Australians in the end. Don’t we realise it is contradictory for the public who is watching the show ? Because in this « bowing business » we don’t understand anymore who can bow, who can not, and whom to ? Who is going to be kicked out by doing so, and who is not ? Such manipulation ! Above all, I’ve never heard the family members boasting about their status, they are so humble about it, which is not the case of some of us when they declare : « do you know who I am ? » just because they have a position in SY or are acquainted to such a person.
I have never heard any family member pretend he/she is a deity of any kind or behave like it. This so-called worshipping business of the family generates anger and heat in some of us, but is worshipping human beings a new thing in SY? Not at all ! Some of our prominent leaders have been worshipped like gods for years by other yogis and are still worshipped, having their court and everything, let’s spare the details. Has this cult been disturbed by yogis writing about them and exposing them ? Not at all because there is wisdom in the majority of us. Everyone awaits patiently that they come out of their dreams and illusions because we still hope things may change one day.
But they should be careful, if not they will end up being false gurus inside our Sangham, if they are not already. And always talking about « cult » what about the secret cult they develop by excluding all the yogis they do not like because they don’t fall at their feet or don’t share the same views ? They feel so threatened and insecure that whoever is not a « yes man » is labelled as an « enemy ». I may sound harsh but when you see some behaviour, this is a subject of concern indeed. Yet it is so petty, incredibly so petty, but big wars on the planet have always started because of pettiness.
To give an example, in 2006, one of them came to Djamel and I and started complaining about Sir CP. Leave apart the complaints, what was most striking was his anger and distress on seeing new yogis, other than those we had always known so far, being appointed to different functions around the foundation or elsewhere. Shocking the way he was taking about these persons, my heart was aching. I thought to myself : « but why not give a chance to other people too ? He’s done a good job so he should rest now ! » I believe in sharing and extending, but maybe I’m wrong.
And when Sir CP dissolved the first council, one of them also very distressed rushed to me some time after our daughter’s wedding saying : « I know what Sir CP is going to do now, he is going to create a new world council and put Djamel (my husband) as the chairman ! ». « Oh, so this is what it is ! » I thought. POWER and being the « FIRST », the eternal painful disease of human beings as soon as they have a position or some success of any kind which is a lingering danger to all of us, and not only coordinators if we are not careful. Of course it was never in Sir CP’s plans, neither in our mind after Shri Mataji had brought us into Her family.
I laughed and reassured him he had nothing to fear from us because we had never been and would never be leaders, coordinators or whatever, Mother was just expecting us to develop family relationships with Her members. But Had it been the case as this person feared, I can imagine easily the tough and rough time a gentle person like Djamel (who has never boasted he was one of the first 10 yogis in London, or he understood things better than everyone else as a result) would have endured, because he was not wanted at all in the « inner circle » like the majority of us.
Last topic : « Shri Mataji’s family members are not yogis, they don’t meditate ! » Can those barking such words be called yogis when their death sentence reflects such competitive, cheap, unhappy, and disturbed attention ? Again some of us in the past have been given responsibilities in SY under the name of « yogis » and « yoginis » but to no avail, because Mother had to throw them out in the end.
Had they ever been yogis ? Probably not, but they mesmerised several of us and were accepted as « maha yogis » for some, and tolerated by the rest. So where does the state of « yogi » start ? The more I go, the more I don’t know myself… Difficult to say… What about our shortcomings which are still there after so many years of practice ? And I include myself in saying so. Still a long way to go for all of us. And what about our children ? Are they yogis ?
Are they not ? Some run away from SY, others misbehave and don’t respect the dharma required from Mother but are allowed to be kept in SY, this and that… Do we throw them out ? Don’t we give them a second, third or fourth chance ? Don’t we have compassion when it comes to our own families ? We can see ourselves how difficult and delicate it is to instil in our children some drops of divine nectar by which they may one day become aware of their true nature. Evolution takes time and is very slow for each one of us, but slowly slowly we are moving forward asking Mother to forgive us and enlighten our path.
So why should this privilege of evolving be refused to Her family members ? In the same way that we are not the same as those we were 10, 20 or 40 years ago when we got our self-realisation, so is it for Her family too. When I see for instance some of us writing confidently that Mother’s daughters do not recognise Her as Shri Adi Shakti, I’m dumbfounded, because have they been close to them ? Have they spoken to them ? Of course they will say that it is enough to check on vibrations.
Well and good, but what about coming a little bit further closer to some family members and experience the quality of their presence and vibrations ? What do we know about their inner state ? What do we know about their relationship with Mother ? Have we shared with them some of their spiritual experiences ? We could be speechless in some examples they give because like all of us they know who Shri Mataji is.
And maybe some of them know better than us who She is, what do we know about it ? Maybe some of them don’t « meditate » as some of us say, but despite that have or experience the Sahaj state we are all looking for through our meditation techniques. Surprising ? Again what do we know ? After all, they have Her genes. If jealousy was not blinding some of us, we could have gatherings including family members, listening to their side of the story too, because they detain fascinating elements about their mother, mother-in-law and grandmother, it is obvious.
Why should we want to ban this if we aim at producing to the future generations a full description of our Sahaj history ? They should write their experiences too as yogis do. We should not cross maryadas towards them just as we should not cross maryadas towards each other either as Mother’s children. If only we accepted to open our hearts to each other like our yuva shaktis do, starting with sharing a simple cup of tea and say : « How are you ? Tell me about you these days ? », listening to each other and integrating more and more people in our heart instead of forming groups and excluding others (this applies not only to coordinators) then our collectivity would be pure magic and joy.
And we need more than ever this magic and joy between us, not dirty politics, if we want to improve or change the state of the outside world today. We are already so fortunate and blessed to be protected in such a dangerous, violent and lost world, which is executing and beheading human beings everywhere around us, so what is the need to behave stupidly and aggressively between us ? Why can’t we just fall into each other’s arms ? Are we so different from one another ?
Now Anand and Fatima have a little boy of 2 years. When I see my cute and innocent grandson, I wonder about his future in SY. Are we really going to « draw a line » between him and the other yogis, just because he has Mother’s genes ? Are we going to spoil his life, or even worse destroy it ? But one thing is sure, if this ever happens (please Mother, don’t let it happen), Sir CP will certainly not be the destroyer. I also feel sad for my daughter because she enjoys so much Sahaj life and was such a happy yuva shakti, mixing with everyone, loving everyone and being loved in return. She has no malice whatsoever in her heart. Now we feel like criminals at times showing up in the collectivity, though we have done nothing wrong, are not plotting against anyone and have remained exactly the same.
As I said, I live in Mumbai presently, our grandson visits us at times. My heart would like to take the little one to Pratisthan like all yogis do with their children when they come to Mumbai, but in this situation I prefer not to, because it would raise fire again… Yet, maybe the day will come back where all family members and yogis will eat and chat in Mother’s properties like in the old days, but for the good reasons this time of pure and genuine love between human beings, without any groups or clans, because groups and clans have killed our first generation unfortunately and are still doing it.
This is the story of us all, born to love each other or at least try - because it is not easy to love everyone around, it is not going to happen in a few years- but instead of that… Sometimes I lose hope for our first generation of yogis. What is history going to write about us one day ? Linda (William) has produced a beautiful collection of volumes relating our best stories with Mother called « Eternally inspiring recollections of our Holy Mother ». Let’s hope there won’t come a dark collection written on us by outsiders called « Eternally sad recollections of the first Sahaji yogis on earth ».
All my love to each of you,
Guillemette.
PS : Please feel free to pass on this letter.
Here you will find also, at the bottom, the public letter from Guillemette, Anand mother-in-law.
No comments please. This is a page for information.
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*From:* Anand Varma
*Date:* 26 January 2015
*Subject:* *Please sent it out and circulate
as far as you can. No stone unturned.*
Dear Yogis,
You can share this will all the Yogis. It is
very important that they read this. Please send it out to as many people as you
wish.
This is the face of the people who want to
destroy the life of My Mother, Sadhana, myself, my sister and my whole family.
This is happening because My Aunt Kalpana Srivastava wants money that she
feels, she was denied. She is even more angry that she never got Pratishthan.
She has publicly stated
that she will destroy my Family. She is suing
us in court in Italy for 2 Million Euros. She has been for the last five years,
using her charisma and getting more yogis/leaders on her side to turn against
my Mother. They have been ruthlessly attacking all of us since Mother left us.
Frankly Jana, if it is the wish of Shri Mataji that we are attacked like this
and abused, then so be it, maybe we have to pay for something. I however think
this is the face of people who want to have supreme power in Sahaj Yoga. My
Aunty is actually very open about her intentions to destroy us and doesn't hide
anything. But she has been used by Sahaj Yogis, and this is the work of Mr. Gregoire
de Kalbermatten, who wants to be the supreme ruler of Sahaj Yoga.
Making money? We are wealthy, we are happy and
there is nothing to hide. We were wealthy when Mother was alive, she gave us
Money when she was physically present with us. What happened then? Did anyone
get angry? Do people know how much money she gave to yogis? Do they know how
many lives she saved? What is the value of that? Kalpana Srivatava has very
nice cars in Dubai and flats in Dubai, and we have nothing against her. She has
a very expensive flat in Mumbai and lives a very good life. She has other properties,
Jewelry and this was given to her when Mother was alive and with Shri Mataji’s
full intention. She has done nothing wrong. As far as money is concerned, Shri Mataji
and Sir CP together gave away the following properties and cash money for Sahaj
Yoga, and please when you read below, use your logic and think, if this is what
they gave, which person in their right mind would do this AND try and exploit
Sahaj Yoga for financial gain. This is moronic and stupid.
1. Pratisthan- Value today- 15 Million to 20
Million USD- This was paid for by Sir CP entirely by his funds from 16 years of
work in the U.N. and from the sale of the Brompton Square property.
2. Castle in Cabella- 2 Million Euros.
3. House in New Jersey- 800,000 USD
4. House in Turkey- don't know the Value.
5. House in Australia- Don't know that Value.
Shri Mataji and Sir CP together gave away more than 2 Million USD in cash
for the foundation, for the tapes and for the Bloxham farm. Leave aside the hundreds
and thousands given away for helping individual yogis and making their lives.
Somehow, now Shri Mataji has lost her right to
help her own family? If it displeases anyone to know that I have enough money
to buy a nice car and have a good house, then I am sorry you don't have a
problem with me, but you have a problem with Shri Mataji. Shri Mataji had been
giving us (her family) money since 1980's. So what happened? Did we suddenly
become evil?
Did you object in 1988 when she gave us money,
did you object in 1992, did you object in 1993 and did you object in 1994?
1995? 1996? 1997? 1998? 1999, 2000, 2001, 2002, 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007,
2009, 2010? What happened? What suddenly happened?
And if anyone, any Sahaj Yogi in any
part of the world believes that Shri Mataji's generosity was only extended to
her family, then they are wrong. There are so called Yogis, who cheated Shri
Mataji, cheated my family and stole from us and those stories can be told, but
we don't tell them for the sake of decency. Shri Mataji made people from the
street Millionaires, and gave them much more in terms of what can never be
valued in Money. Myself, Kalpana, Anupama, Aradhana, Sadhana, Sonalika all got
a substantial sum of money from Shri Mataji, and this is what she wanted. If
this hurts you, if it makes you think we are thieves, then you have a problem
with Shri Mataji. She gave us money, gifts, flew us abroad, and we sat in shiny
white couches during entertainment programs and were served tea and snacks in
her presence for 15 years. If this bothers you, please talk to Shri Mataji in
your meditation and ask her why she did it. One of the reasons maybe that she loved
us? Like she loves you??
The issue has come since the passing of Mother
in her Physical presence. Two things happened, Mr. Gregoire De Kalbermatten
hated Mr. C.P. Srivastava and then Kalpana Srivastava got angry with her father
because she thought she was going to get Pratishtan, which she never got. This
was the most expensive and auspicious property, which every Yogi must hear, Sir
CP made sure, it went to Sahaj Yoga. This made Kalpana Srivastava very very angry
and she was livid with my Mom and decided to destroy her life. *Soon an
alliance was formed between Kalpana Srivastava and Gregoire de Kalbermatten to
destroy the life of Sadhana Varma and to destroy whatever was left of Mr. Srivastava.*
And let me say, I have nothing against my Aunty Kalpana Srivastava, she openly
says she is not a yogini, she openly says she wants to destroy my Mom, She
openly says she wants money and she openly attacks us through proxies, BUT I
have everything against a man who used my Aunt's hatred for her father to get
into absolute power. When the father is the man's Gurus husband and the
daughter is the daughter of the person he worships. How is this possible? How
can you stoop so low?
Kalpana Srivastava discussed deeply with Mr.
Gregoire de Kalbermatten who expressed his desire to make a committee and use
this video for his own quest for power. Of course the conversations must have
been all about "The Good intentions to save Sahaj Yoga from Mr. Srivastava
and what an evil man he is. An email was sent out through the instructions of
my Aunty Kalpana Srivastava by two yogis from Dubai, Mr. Anil Mishra and Mr.
Badrinath, using as evidence, a video of Mother when she spoke of creating a
central committee in 2008. The email said, "Dear Brother Gregoire, we have
seen how Mother was looking at you, when she spoke of this committee, so now
YOU have to create the central Committee, you must now take the responsibility.
Anyone can see the video and realize that this is mesmerism. Shri Mataji never
took the name of Gregoire de Kalbermatten, she never gave him direct responsibilities,
and she never gave any further instructions in 2008, 2009, 2010. Why not? Did
Mother suddenly give these yogis from Dubai the authority to read her mind?
What is this?? How can you fool people so blindly? If you don't believe me
watch the video yourself, and till today the CC is using this video to show how
this was the will of Mother. Mother talked about communication about sorting
out issues. No clear boundaries of Authority were given, no clear instructions
on procedure were given, nothing was written, no names were mentioned. *And if
instructions are not given we have NO right to claim them on her name.* How
power is usurped became very clear. Suddenly the CC is deciding Puja Dates. Can
you see anything in this video that she mentions about Puja dates and location?
And this is what they have done, they have taken control of the Puja dates and locations.
See this on the website of the CC. Who gave them this Authority? Several
countries opposed the creation of the CC and disagreed with them due to the
lack of clarity in its full executable form, and they realized that this could
be a dangerous game of power. But who is anyone to oppose anything when the
lords are claiming divine sanction? If you do disagree, you are attacked,
abused, and fabrications are made daily to discredit you.
The CC used every opportunity to attack ISPS,
when Grace a young girl from the U.K. passed away in Dharamsala, they made all
sorts of accusations. How this was no longer Mother's school. Did they ever
tell anyone that she had a pre existing condition? The Swiss council was
calling parents to remove them from the school.
Now comes the problem. Mr. Gregoire de
Kalbermatten did not realize that my Aunty Kalpana Srivastava has an anger
management problem. In the unrelenting attacks on my Mother, the Indian
national council, Poor Dr. Madhur Rai wrote a letter for unity. That was it.
From that day began a story that no one should know, that no one should hear,
no one should talk about, because this is the project of Kalpana Srivastava and
the ally Mr. Kalbermatten has pushed aside all criticism, or so he thought he
had. What continued were daily attacks on Dr. Sandeep Rai, her husband, manipulations
to turn the staff against them, asking Dr. Madhur to provide bills and questioning
her dedication and her position began with subtle viciousness.
This was a story that wound around two years
of constant psychological torture with means deployed sparing no stone unturned
to cause pain, anguish and humiliation. Dr. Madhur Rai till today suffers from
the psychological trauma of those days, their children shake and shudder at the
name of Vashi. They bullied them, tried every way to accuse them of things they
didn't do and them humiliated them and destroyed the 12 years that they spent,
7 days a week, to cure people, help them and sent them back with smiles, and
create a place which was the true temple of Shri Mataji.
This was going on for nearly two years and
where were the CC communications? Where was the voice?? What happened? One day,
a hundred people came to Vashi in cars from all over Maharashtra to intimidate
a helpless lady, her innocent husband, two young children and an old Mother.
And I will tell every Sahaj Yogi this, that
this was the moment I got up to fight back. I called leaders, I called Yogis
and I tried to send even a letter to the Swiss Yogis, which was blocked by
their network. Even more disgraceful were the calls for help from Dr. Madhur
Rai, emails, phone calls, practically pleading for help.
NO ONE CAME TO HELP. They discharged
the family, threw them out and then even went to their next job to torture them
further. It was a behavior and vindictiveness that I personally have not seen.
When I hear what the two boys Niranjan and Devdatt had been through, I cried
after several years. The story of two years was covered up. It was only in the
last few days before they were removed physically from the Vashi Hospital, that
I got a call from Mr. Alex Henshaw. I explained a process that I wanted to
start to get a legal stop on their removal but nothing happened. In the end it
was a Yogi from Finland (God bless his heart), who got up and fought back and
2000 signatures were collected. Of course that was not effective against this
force.
ISPS SCHOOL and CABELLA SCHOOL
So, apparently my Mother is making loads of
money from both the schools, shoving it in her pocket and having a great life,
while the Sahaj children are starving and being put through a disgusting
depravation. Isn't this more a Nazi image? My mom is like a cruel Hitler, who
sucks the blood of these poor children. WOW The reality is, both schools are
practically broke because of low fees and heavy expenses. My Mother has put
over 70,000 euros in ISPS because there is no money sometimes. The school
accounts are audited and submitted to government officials. It is actually
illegal for any school board member to withdraw any funds even a rupee from the
school for themselves. If they did that they would be behind bars. But of course
no one will believe this. Some facts: I went through with administration about
finances in ISPS when Mother was alive and similar accusation were made, It was
revealed that the only person that even took money out of ISPS at that time was
Shri Mataji herself and she took out money to give it to the Vaitarna academy.
WHAT I SUGGEST: All the people who think my
Mother is making money in the school, get together, pool some money together,
get a lawyer and sue the ISPS society in India. Take them to court. I will
encourage it and I will even put some money in it. Get them behind bars. This
is a lot better than spreading poison and writing on the internet. The same can
be done in Italy, get a lawyer and sue the Cabella school administration. This
will clear up everything. There is no other way. No amount of spreading poison
will sort it out. I encourage you to take legal action. If this is not enough
and we are still evil and you need to spread that on the internet or you are
frustrated with our existence, then take a Gun and shoot us dead just like the Muslims
did with the family of prophet Mohamed after his death. I prefer our dead
bodies to the disgusting nonsense you are doing,
The 20 odd page document that my Aunty Kalpana
has submitted to further her accusation of money stealing and misappropriations
are being replied to in court. It is isn't as if my Mother has any breathing
space, it has taken all the forms of defamation and aggression. The question of
a legal will and its authenticity are a court matter and those who played foul
will find themselves behind bars. Mr. Kalbermatten has decisively made this a
Sahaj matter and lately aggressed a man who served Mother since he was a Young Boy,
he had him removed from the foundation. *Sanjay Mane is the yogi who has spent
the maximum time with Shri Mataji and served her with a dedication that is legendary,
a service and a devotion that could into the history books of Sahaj Yoga.
Thousands of Yogis can vouch for this. But who cares if you have served Mother
for 20 years, go to hell and get out of the foundation and take your dignity
with you.*
I had to take on Mr. Kalbermatten, because he
is on an uncontrolled rampage to destroy people that disagree with him. He
talks of my Mother being worshipped in Australia, really? Where is the altar to
my Mom? Where are the mantras to her name? Where is the Holy procession? The
fact is if anyone defends his aggression, he should be bulldozed and destroyed,
that is the style of this man and that's what happens to those that disagree with
him. Because the Australians defend my Mom and disagree with him, he goes for
them, and there is a full propaganda machine that runs in Switzerland, that
disgraces and defames anyone that disagrees.
The viciousness and the aggression will be
fought back, unrelenting, day and night, and with a blinding force. Yogi, not
yogi, call me what you want and say what you want it makes no difference to me.
The greatest code of honor for a son is to protect his Mother. I know what my Grandmother
would have expected of me and I have executed.
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Date: 27 January 2015 15:25:13 CET
Subject: "It is about the thread of Love". A change of Heart, I am really sorry....
From: Anand Varma <somewhereunderwonderland7@gmail.com
To: …
Dear Swiss Yogis, and Yogis in General.
Uncle Arneau's letter {a letter we do not know of} is what a leader in Sahaj should write, to bring about love and compassion and forget the past. This had indeed brought about a tremendous change of heart in me.
I made a very bad mistake and I am ashamed of myself. The terrible things I did and said were gratuitous and so bizarre. Actually, the fact is I am not a Yogi. I still need to get there, I need to introspect and change my stupid and aggressive behavior. I need to apologize and face the reality. I need to meditate "and feel the love, the thread of love." I am so sorry. Please forgive me.
To criticize and attack Uncle Gregoire is wrong, to attack the central committee founded on Mothers wishes is even worse. Uncle Gregoire is a pure and gentle man, whose kindness and love has touched hundreds of Yogis. His gentle nature and deeply introspective nature is something that resonates with Mother's eternal values. He is one of those people who imbibed and practiced one of Mothers important teaching, "Look at yourself, change yourself, and forget about the mistakes of Others." Nor has he ever wanted to have importance nor has he even seeked any place to control anything anywhere.
I actually have forgotten the good things he did. Over the last several years he travelled to several countries promoting his book, Dagad trikon, (Because of very heavy demand), but in fact many yogis told me about his gentleness and how beautifully he spoke of my Family and my Grandfather. I was actually very surprised to see the number of people that got back to me about this. He defended Mr. Srivastava and my family and of course he has guided the family by working on us (Foot soak and chakra clearing) to help us in our evolution. This is what Mother would have expected, do your remember. "Help them through your vibrations and your love." This is what he has done. He also completely discouraged friction and antagonism. All those around him practice the same. His friends have learnt his saintly value and are in fact sometimes aggressed by others and don't react. They remind me of the Amish of Pennsylvania.
One of Uncle Gregoire's incredible values is forgiveness. He is very forgiving. While other yogis fight and act belligerent, he soften them by instantly turning on a talk of Mother and putting them in meditation. My Grandfather Sir CP was very tough with him and others, but uncle Gregoire forgave and showed by his forgiveness that he is a true leader and true Son of Mother. Why should not such person Guide Sahaj Yoga with the Central Comittee? It is obvious. He has often said, "Look at the Good side of people, after all we have to change them, transform them, otherwise Mother's incarnation will go waste."
Actually, Uncle Gregoire never wanted to be on the Central Comittee. He was forced and pushed by many many people. He also wanted to resign several times due to his reclusive and saintly nature but the support and need for him was so overwhelming that he stayed. Actually, he was mobbed outside his house by Yogis in Mies who pleaded with him to stay. He has actually really been hard on people that praise him, he only praises others. Uncle Gregoire, Sahaj Yoga needs you, I need you. My Family needs you. He often says, "I have done Nothing for Sahaj, it is all Mother's blessing and her working."
A recent incident drove me to tears. A man called Hari Gaekwad went to greet Uncle Gregoire at a Puja. Hari is a very caught up man. However Uncle Gregoire”s strength is a strength of a true saint, he immediately saw the need to transform Hari and work on him. He immediately invited him for a tea and scones later in the evening. He worked on Hari and gave him love. Hari was shining. When I saw Hari later, I was really shocked, his face was absolutely radiant. He also told forget the mistakes of your Father, it is all forgotten, it is all in the past, again following Mother's teaching.
The Central Committee has so far been working tirelessly for Sahaj. They have been organizing countless programs to give realization, go and see on their site, they have hundreds of initiatives. THAT IS WHAT MOTHER WANTS. They never lecture people, never give opinions and do not create unnesaary chatter, they engage with persons concerned and work through love, through respectful contact to transform people if there is a problem, upholding Mother's values. They have encouraged a drive to involve all in forums and talk openly about issues, so blind and biased criticism is avoided. Most importanly they act and do stuff instead of just sending speculative material that may defame people without proof.
Their concern for ISPS is very genuine. They were sad about the wonderful facilities that were existent when their own kids were there and sadly the ISPS board has destroyed most of the Good work. Dharamsala is a very easy place to operate, the kids are angels and there are thousands of people waiting in Line to work for free. Actually, the fact is, the Nabhi of Dharamsala ISPS is not Good as the board maybe..... The concern for ISPS is furthered by the bad vibrations and the dejected look on the children when they return home. The recent communication was based on a very in depth analysis of Dahramsala with several trips back and forth from India. Just like their initiative to save Vashi, they are working now to keep the Vibrations in ISPS. The Central Comittee is the protector of the beacons of our vibrations, Vashi, ISPS our greatest asset. Salute these guys. They have been encouraging more and more children to go there, help the financial equation and save Mother's work. Here they have simply followed Mothers direct instructions for years- "If there is the slightest Problem in ISPS, go and investigate it, don't stand back, and go and see and always try and involve yourself in it, make sure ISPS is always on your deeply spiritual watch." I would like to add that Uncle Gregoires saintly nature will help ISPS and his vibrations and will kill the negativity." Everything will change by the Central Comittees communications. These communications have exemplary spiritual powers, transformational powers. Some of you may not beleive me, but when I read one of the communications, my life changed.
Uncle Gregoire has some very evolved friends. One of them is Uncle Horacio, who is actually very independent of Uncle Gregoire, his theories are more based on passive Sufi and vedic traditions. Uncle Horacio recently sent me a mail and said "That he loves me." How could I forget, a few years ago when the Italians in WF, were trying to rob the family of their right for short stay in Cabella castle, Uncle Horacio got up and said, that it is the infinite right of the family to stay in the Castle, he fought for Mother. The Italians very very unhospitable to us, that is actually Italian Culture, they are heartless. Uncle Horacio fought and made sure we have that right. He told me how shocked he was to see the hurtful drive of the Italians, "Can you imagine, the very property Mother donated to us, for the several years that Yogis stayed in all of Mother's homes, for what she did for us, the Italian wants to deny her own family the right to stay, how infinitely mean is this, this is an attack in Shri Mataji herself." Uncle Horacio also made sure someone cooks my favorite bluberry pancakes with maple syrup when I am at the castle.
The Swiss culture of heart was evident when I moved there, the number of invitations, the free and open and transparent fun loving culture in the Swiss collective. The hugs and all that fun and laughter should have already changed me. I was getting fed up with the number of people hugging me, the heart was just mindblowing.
In short I need to introspect and change Myself. My lack of meditation and introspection was the cause of the hurtful attacks. To forget how uncle Gregoire has fought for the privacy of family, have shown us love , how hard Uncle Gregoire is working for Sahaj (and don't forget he's one of the only ones that has done that), and of course what Gentle soul he is, is unforgivable.
I am sorry, please forgive me, please allow me the time for repent and atonement.
Uncle Arneau, if it had not been for your mail, things would have not changed.
I must realize I am not a Yogi and only find a place when I get to some spiritual level through meditation.
It is of no surprise to me that after 30 years of watching Mothers tapes and doing Puja, Uncle Gregoire and Uncle Arneau are the kind and loving souls that they are. Of course Sahaj is about love.
In utmost regret and now facing clarity.
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-----Original Message----- From: IPSYmission <ipsymission@gmail.com>
To: news <news@spreadingsahajayoga.org>
Sent: Fri, Feb 27, 2015 3:17 am
From: Anand Varma
Date: Sun, Feb 1, 2015
Subject: Note from Anand- Fight for Survival / The mysterious email
To: Yogis
Every Sahaj yogi should read this email.
If anyone thinks that the last email I sent was a gratuitous erratic outburst, it was not. It was a fight for survival. When you have your back to the wall and are being strangled, it is practically biological that you will fight to breathe. In late 2012 I began seeing a pattern in various internet discussions that were public, Facebook, Yogis private sites, pouring the red rose petals on the family. I decided to hire a professional to analyze it. I sat down regularly on the internet with a chatter analyst (in another country) for months to see if we could nail down a single source. The conclusions for him were logical and based upon the intention of those who controlled those forums. The easily extrapolated narratives were; The family of Shri Mataji is bad, Sir C.P. is being proclaimed as "Sadashiva,", My Mother, Sadhana Varma is being worshiped in a cult in Australia,the family is generally worshiped by certain people, My Grandfather fabricated Shri Mataji's will etc. Although the analyst saw over four months a clearly unrelenting , intentional and targeted quality in the chatter, he actually asked me a bizarre question one day. Who is Gregoire and What is the Central Committee? He asked me this because he had seen growing praise for Gregoire on the forums, and the insinuated narrative that "now that central committee is in control of the situation, everything will be okay, the bad days of the family are over." The man based several thousand miles from me told me over the phone, "it is the same people who are criticizing your family, who are, at the same time praising Gregoire and talking about the new authority, The Central Committee. The Analyst himself asked me "What do these people want.?"
I must realize I am not a Yogi and only find a place when I get to some spiritual level through meditation.
It is of no surprise to me that after 30 years of watching Mothers tapes and doing Puja, Uncle Gregoire and Uncle Arneau are the kind and loving souls that they are. Of course Sahaj is about love.
In utmost regret and now facing clarity.
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-----Original Message----- From: IPSYmission <ipsymission@gmail.com>
To: news <news@spreadingsahajayoga.org>
Sent: Fri, Feb 27, 2015 3:17 am
From: Anand Varma
Date: Sun, Feb 1, 2015
Subject: Note from Anand- Fight for Survival / The mysterious email
To: Yogis
Every Sahaj yogi should read this email.
If anyone thinks that the last email I sent was a gratuitous erratic outburst, it was not. It was a fight for survival. When you have your back to the wall and are being strangled, it is practically biological that you will fight to breathe. In late 2012 I began seeing a pattern in various internet discussions that were public, Facebook, Yogis private sites, pouring the red rose petals on the family. I decided to hire a professional to analyze it. I sat down regularly on the internet with a chatter analyst (in another country) for months to see if we could nail down a single source. The conclusions for him were logical and based upon the intention of those who controlled those forums. The easily extrapolated narratives were; The family of Shri Mataji is bad, Sir C.P. is being proclaimed as "Sadashiva,", My Mother, Sadhana Varma is being worshiped in a cult in Australia,the family is generally worshiped by certain people, My Grandfather fabricated Shri Mataji's will etc. Although the analyst saw over four months a clearly unrelenting , intentional and targeted quality in the chatter, he actually asked me a bizarre question one day. Who is Gregoire and What is the Central Committee? He asked me this because he had seen growing praise for Gregoire on the forums, and the insinuated narrative that "now that central committee is in control of the situation, everything will be okay, the bad days of the family are over." The man based several thousand miles from me told me over the phone, "it is the same people who are criticizing your family, who are, at the same time praising Gregoire and talking about the new authority, The Central Committee. The Analyst himself asked me "What do these people want.?"
As I searched for the answer, my brain flashed back to June 2011, and I remembered the lightning bolt I got when I had read the email pasted below. It is the most fascinating email I have ever read, no exaggeration. It is even more fascinating to think about the fact that not a single yogi ever questioned the genesis of this email, even though it was held and posted all over the internet. I compliment the person that executed this mail because it flew like a stealth bomber, it flew undetected. The incredible claims and conclusions of this email cause no alarm. Even more fascinatingly the innocent heroes of this email Anil Mishra and Badrinath are left as figments of our imagination. Did they serve Mother? Were they leaders of a forgotten era? Were they sages from Himalayas prone to revelations? No. They were simply two yogis from Dubai and somehow they could read Shri Mataji's mind. I can assure you that this is not a co-incidence. Though I knew exactly what was happening, the only thing I could do is hold my head and sigh.
Read on.
Jai Shri Mataji,
Jai Shri Mataji,
Dear Gregoire,We have been witness to a number of mails flying around regarding the formation of a Central Committee, as asked by Shri Mataji very clearly in her 2008 Guru Puja speech. The solution to any problem lies in Shri Mataji's talks, and hence we decided to see the video of the entire proceedings that took place in Shri Mataji's presence.We realized after listening that Shri Mataji has chosen you to to take the responsibility of the Central Committee. We are attaching the mp4 clipping of the part where she says clearly looking at you and commanding you to take the responsibility of forming the committee. In fact to quote her words, "I think now you (Gregoire) take the responsibility". We fail to understand why none of you have been able to see this very clear instruction from Our Guru.We know from a number of talks of Shri Mataji that she has held you in very high esteem. You might have decided to take a back seat because we know from past experience that you never try to project yourself, but have always functioned on the principles of truth, integrity, true love and collective leadership. Hence after seeing the clip we are compelled to ask you to follow your Param Dharma (utmost important duty) which is to obey our Guru , Param Pujya Shri Mataji, because we are sure that any committee formed with your guidance will work under the same principles.We urge you to take on this responsibility immediately, to lead the formation of a central committee, and bring about an era where the words of Our Guru are supreme.With Love, Anil & Badrinath
The natural conclusion many have formed from these facts is that this email was the work of Kalpana Srivastava and Gregoire de Kalbermatten. The two Yogis from Dubai who sent this email, did not have a sudden revelation that Mr. Gregoire was the chosen guard of Sahaja Yoga. This email was entirely planned, strategized and sent across the Sahaj world to spawn the central committee. They saw the 2008 video where mother spoke of Central Comittee and decided to manipulate it. They worked out the language to somehow place Mr. Kalbermatten at the helm of affairs and fool several hundred thousand Yogis. I remember Mr. Kalbermatten's response. "Thank You brothers for your trust." Which trust was he talking about? The trust that they can read Shri Mataji's mind? The trust that this email is a forced conclusion of Shri Mataji’s desires.?
Read this email and see for yourself
The natural conclusion many have formed from these facts is that this email was the work of Kalpana Srivastava and Gregoire de Kalbermatten. The two Yogis from Dubai who sent this email, did not have a sudden revelation that Mr. Gregoire was the chosen guard of Sahaja Yoga. This email was entirely planned, strategized and sent across the Sahaj world to spawn the central committee. They saw the 2008 video where mother spoke of Central Comittee and decided to manipulate it. They worked out the language to somehow place Mr. Kalbermatten at the helm of affairs and fool several hundred thousand Yogis. I remember Mr. Kalbermatten's response. "Thank You brothers for your trust." Which trust was he talking about? The trust that they can read Shri Mataji's mind? The trust that this email is a forced conclusion of Shri Mataji’s desires.?
Read this email and see for yourself
what you’re dealing with. I don't want to repeat what I claimed in my last email. If you trust after reading this email, the so-called election process they followed, that is your decision.
Remember, I knew about this lie and blatant manipulation and kept quiet for nearly three years. During those three years I would get reports from several countries that Mr. Kalbermatten would intentionally defame my family, while promoting his book and himself on his tour. I got countless private warnings that Mr. Kalbermatten was doing this wherever he went. He insulted my Mother repeatedly and kept his absurd , "Worshiping accusation." Interestingly I had two reports from eastern Europe that Mr. Kalbermatten was being practically venerated during his book presentations. Yet I kept quiet. But there is a limit and no one can sit suppressed forever.
Defaming people and using the internet to promote negative ideas is not something Mother would ever tolerate.
I cannot give closure to what has happened because I really don't know what to say? I cannot stress how disoriented I feel when I see such people claiming to lead a movement based on an experience of Truth. I cannot understand what happens when they get up in the morning? Honestly, sometimes I have had to stare at the blank white wall to not fall further into depression.
I was always told by Mother to look at myself and not seek out the faults of others, and in fact that is why I held myself back for nearly three years. Introspection is key to the culture of Mother. Everyday I wake up and realize the huge task ahead of me, my mistakes, my problems and changes I need to bring in myself. This is enough for one spirit, one life.
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From: Guillemette & Djamel Metouri <djasy108@hotmail.com> +PS : Please feel free to pass on this letter.
Date: Sat, Feb 14, 2015
Subject: Once upon a time in our Sahaj land (from Guillemette Metouri)
Dear yogis and yoginis,
For those who do not know me, my name is Guillemette, I am French but live presently in Mumbai where my husband Djamel is currently posted.
I am Anand’s mother-in-law, Shri Mataji’s grandson. I was finishing a letter of my own initiative when he suddenly sent a few messages of his own initiative too that many of us have already seen. I am not his private secretary or ambassador and he is not mine either. We don’t even form a group as he does not ask me to support him and the other way round, nor did we consult each other before deciding to write.
So it happened it was coincidental and if one is skeptical on this, well, I can only say that Mother knows whether I speak the truth or not. But given the escalation of allegations of all kinds which have been pronounced against Shri Mataji’s family for several years now, I suppose Time itself felt the moment had come for us to invite some people to cool down. Also one may say that I can only be biased because Mother put me in Her family, but even without having been in Her family, I would have mentioned exactly the same things regarding the pattern of our general behavior as yogis, so it does not make any difference. Furthermore, we should not be naive to think that Mother’s family needs me to defend them, because Mother’s particular attention is with each one of them wherever they go and whatever they do, this is a fact, they do not need me nor anyone else for their protection. So here started the letter a few weeks ago:
First of all, happy New Year 2015. Some European youngsters have just told me how they enjoyed the Yuva Shakti seminar in UK at Christmas, about 230 of them, coming from all over the world, from places as far as America, Australia, New Zealand, etc… In a pure, innocent and loving manner, they have decided to support each other and attend whenever possible the tours that will take place around the world this year. And while this is happening, what is our first generation of old yogis doing? Giving our children the miserable show of ugly fights! Of course this concerns only a few of us who are strong and influential enough to spread poison in the mind of the masses which are not involved in anything and are made to believe this and that rather than this or that.
I’m not writing to open a discussion, a debate, give a solution, or preach, because things take their own course whether we like it or not, but I propose to go straight to some facts that show our pettiness and limitations as yogis and also question our deepest motivations, while we expect the absolute perfection from our Mother’s family. For it is a great shame that our collectivities are destabilized and have to suffer because of mere political manipulations coming from a few of us.
And I do not even want to bring out these facts to accuse them -enough of these allegations- but by relating some practical situations and only a few of them amongst other equally or more embarrassing ones, I hope this may bring a zest of compassion and acceptance between us, and above all make us realize that before we expose X,Y,Z, we should first wash our hands, which in some cases are very dirty indeed since years. That is why I will not name anyone in particular, this is not my job.
But honestly can we carry on barking at each other like dogs, still engrossed in animal instincts of clans, territories, etc ?
All this can be summarized under two names and I could even stop my letter to this point : « JEALOUSY » and « POWER » though those involved will appear to be very wise, calm and balanced, and try to convince us they are the « protectors » of our Sahaj family, but they are not.
So forgive me if I take your time by reading these several pages below, though of course I do not force anyone to do so, but this is my first and last letter on this subject. Also know that my husband came to SY in early 1977 and me in 1980, both in London. Like many of us, we have witnessed all kinds of behavior, but nothing like the peak it has reached since Mother stopped talking and then left Her body. Also we have always belonged to what I would call « the crowd » or the mass, never been leaders or affiliated to such or such clan or leader or supporting exclusively such or such country, not even our native one. This is not our style, nor do we have the capacities required to fulfill such a hard job as leaders, because it should be clearly understood that this letter is not aimed at accusing them at all :
« They have worked a lot and sacrificed and dedicated themselves for the advancement of SY, this is so true, we should be thankful to them ! Unfortunately many (but not all of them of course) have also grown over confident over the years and become harsh, selfish, manipulative and cruel at times, separating themselves from the crowds by putting their families and chosen men and women around them and Mother, failing to gather more and more yogis together and encourage their initiatives ! It is somehow difficult to get to their heart and so our collectivity is handicapped !»
This is what I told Anand the very first time he entered our home in August 2008, because he was very disturbed that Sir CP had just then dissolved the First world council. I also told him
«I do not want to upset you because I understand that many close to Shri Mataji have been treating you very well so far, but it is only because you are Her grandson, not for what you are ! For them like all the members of your family, you are just a passport to Mother ! The most angry of them these days have always existed in SY through a position of leadership and can’t accept suddenly to let it go to other hands, or at least to share the work with others, which is a pity because they are experienced and have great qualities and charisma ! Mother is testing them through your grandfather no matter how much they may justify their dismay on a rational level about the dissolution of the council !
We, human beings are not mature enough and find it difficult to follow the example of Shri Rama when he was asked to give up the throne Ayodhya ! So today some of us attack Sir CP because they think he is higher than them in hierarchy, tomorrow it will be your mum and your aunt, after that your turn will come as well as your sister’s and cousins’.
Your family will gradually be excluded because you have become a threat between Mother and them, as they think someone coming « First » or a « happy few » have to occupy the throne after Mother’s departure ! And of course it has to be one or some from their elite group, not other good yogis and certainly not your family !
You needed not to be a great prophet to guess this, it is just a question of common sense for so many of us who have been watching the show for years. So here we are today : Mother’s family is attacked full blast, blamed as the sole and unique responsible (easy way to remove the burden of introspection) for the failures and mistakes we yogis have generated and sustained for the last 40 years, and for which we have never complained so violently and openly before, such as the creation of « dynasties », « worshiping of some of us », fighting around to be at the « helm of affairs », «money misuse », « lack of transparency » etc… The yogis who dared mention these problems at times in the past were just labelled as negative yogis.
But now that Shri Adi Shakti has left us, the situation is different about Her family members, though later on in the history of SY She gave responsibilities to some of them. These days, collectively signed letters, individual letters, petitions, have been and are pouring more and more everyday on Facebook or various websites, becoming repulsive literature and worsening by every passing day.
Petitions, collective letters don’t fit in SY whatever the reason, and are certainly not Mother’s methods. If She were still physically with us, she would blast those who have started this and then their followers, and would throw them out of SY. Sadly enough, it was initiated by a few of us who were allowed for years to receive the best attention and privileges from Her and Her family. These human methods belong to trade-unions, political parties, social work and so on, but they do not fit at all in the spiritual field unless we want to transform SY in a new catholic church with a Peter, a Paul and a pope, or else in the Muslim community we know with sunnis fighting shias.
There are other softer ways to sort things out.
Moreover, Mother was always very strict and uncompromising with whoever criticized or disturbed the work of the leaders, even when they were very wrong, we yogis from the crowd were not allowed to form groups and turn against them, so we gradually learned to cool down, swallow our discomforts, be patient, forgive, share and accept the situations the way they were, because our individual and bloated egos cannot always triumph, can they ? Maybe these rules from Mother do not apply to some of us, I don’t know, because one day the first slogan of the anti-family campaign appeared to be : « Sir CP will destroy SY, Mother said it to me 30 years ago ! » someone said. Mother also said in the early days in London that whenever there was an argument between Her and Her husband, even the deities did not interfere and stepped aside.
Remember, I knew about this lie and blatant manipulation and kept quiet for nearly three years. During those three years I would get reports from several countries that Mr. Kalbermatten would intentionally defame my family, while promoting his book and himself on his tour. I got countless private warnings that Mr. Kalbermatten was doing this wherever he went. He insulted my Mother repeatedly and kept his absurd , "Worshiping accusation." Interestingly I had two reports from eastern Europe that Mr. Kalbermatten was being practically venerated during his book presentations. Yet I kept quiet. But there is a limit and no one can sit suppressed forever.
Defaming people and using the internet to promote negative ideas is not something Mother would ever tolerate.
I cannot give closure to what has happened because I really don't know what to say? I cannot stress how disoriented I feel when I see such people claiming to lead a movement based on an experience of Truth. I cannot understand what happens when they get up in the morning? Honestly, sometimes I have had to stare at the blank white wall to not fall further into depression.
I was always told by Mother to look at myself and not seek out the faults of others, and in fact that is why I held myself back for nearly three years. Introspection is key to the culture of Mother. Everyday I wake up and realize the huge task ahead of me, my mistakes, my problems and changes I need to bring in myself. This is enough for one spirit, one life.
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From: Guillemette & Djamel Metouri <djasy108@hotmail.com> +PS : Please feel free to pass on this letter.
Date: Sat, Feb 14, 2015
Subject: Once upon a time in our Sahaj land (from Guillemette Metouri)
Dear yogis and yoginis,
For those who do not know me, my name is Guillemette, I am French but live presently in Mumbai where my husband Djamel is currently posted.
I am Anand’s mother-in-law, Shri Mataji’s grandson. I was finishing a letter of my own initiative when he suddenly sent a few messages of his own initiative too that many of us have already seen. I am not his private secretary or ambassador and he is not mine either. We don’t even form a group as he does not ask me to support him and the other way round, nor did we consult each other before deciding to write.
So it happened it was coincidental and if one is skeptical on this, well, I can only say that Mother knows whether I speak the truth or not. But given the escalation of allegations of all kinds which have been pronounced against Shri Mataji’s family for several years now, I suppose Time itself felt the moment had come for us to invite some people to cool down. Also one may say that I can only be biased because Mother put me in Her family, but even without having been in Her family, I would have mentioned exactly the same things regarding the pattern of our general behavior as yogis, so it does not make any difference. Furthermore, we should not be naive to think that Mother’s family needs me to defend them, because Mother’s particular attention is with each one of them wherever they go and whatever they do, this is a fact, they do not need me nor anyone else for their protection. So here started the letter a few weeks ago:
First of all, happy New Year 2015. Some European youngsters have just told me how they enjoyed the Yuva Shakti seminar in UK at Christmas, about 230 of them, coming from all over the world, from places as far as America, Australia, New Zealand, etc… In a pure, innocent and loving manner, they have decided to support each other and attend whenever possible the tours that will take place around the world this year. And while this is happening, what is our first generation of old yogis doing? Giving our children the miserable show of ugly fights! Of course this concerns only a few of us who are strong and influential enough to spread poison in the mind of the masses which are not involved in anything and are made to believe this and that rather than this or that.
I’m not writing to open a discussion, a debate, give a solution, or preach, because things take their own course whether we like it or not, but I propose to go straight to some facts that show our pettiness and limitations as yogis and also question our deepest motivations, while we expect the absolute perfection from our Mother’s family. For it is a great shame that our collectivities are destabilized and have to suffer because of mere political manipulations coming from a few of us.
And I do not even want to bring out these facts to accuse them -enough of these allegations- but by relating some practical situations and only a few of them amongst other equally or more embarrassing ones, I hope this may bring a zest of compassion and acceptance between us, and above all make us realize that before we expose X,Y,Z, we should first wash our hands, which in some cases are very dirty indeed since years. That is why I will not name anyone in particular, this is not my job.
But honestly can we carry on barking at each other like dogs, still engrossed in animal instincts of clans, territories, etc ?
All this can be summarized under two names and I could even stop my letter to this point : « JEALOUSY » and « POWER » though those involved will appear to be very wise, calm and balanced, and try to convince us they are the « protectors » of our Sahaj family, but they are not.
So forgive me if I take your time by reading these several pages below, though of course I do not force anyone to do so, but this is my first and last letter on this subject. Also know that my husband came to SY in early 1977 and me in 1980, both in London. Like many of us, we have witnessed all kinds of behavior, but nothing like the peak it has reached since Mother stopped talking and then left Her body. Also we have always belonged to what I would call « the crowd » or the mass, never been leaders or affiliated to such or such clan or leader or supporting exclusively such or such country, not even our native one. This is not our style, nor do we have the capacities required to fulfill such a hard job as leaders, because it should be clearly understood that this letter is not aimed at accusing them at all :
« They have worked a lot and sacrificed and dedicated themselves for the advancement of SY, this is so true, we should be thankful to them ! Unfortunately many (but not all of them of course) have also grown over confident over the years and become harsh, selfish, manipulative and cruel at times, separating themselves from the crowds by putting their families and chosen men and women around them and Mother, failing to gather more and more yogis together and encourage their initiatives ! It is somehow difficult to get to their heart and so our collectivity is handicapped !»
This is what I told Anand the very first time he entered our home in August 2008, because he was very disturbed that Sir CP had just then dissolved the First world council. I also told him
«I do not want to upset you because I understand that many close to Shri Mataji have been treating you very well so far, but it is only because you are Her grandson, not for what you are ! For them like all the members of your family, you are just a passport to Mother ! The most angry of them these days have always existed in SY through a position of leadership and can’t accept suddenly to let it go to other hands, or at least to share the work with others, which is a pity because they are experienced and have great qualities and charisma ! Mother is testing them through your grandfather no matter how much they may justify their dismay on a rational level about the dissolution of the council !
We, human beings are not mature enough and find it difficult to follow the example of Shri Rama when he was asked to give up the throne Ayodhya ! So today some of us attack Sir CP because they think he is higher than them in hierarchy, tomorrow it will be your mum and your aunt, after that your turn will come as well as your sister’s and cousins’.
Your family will gradually be excluded because you have become a threat between Mother and them, as they think someone coming « First » or a « happy few » have to occupy the throne after Mother’s departure ! And of course it has to be one or some from their elite group, not other good yogis and certainly not your family !
You needed not to be a great prophet to guess this, it is just a question of common sense for so many of us who have been watching the show for years. So here we are today : Mother’s family is attacked full blast, blamed as the sole and unique responsible (easy way to remove the burden of introspection) for the failures and mistakes we yogis have generated and sustained for the last 40 years, and for which we have never complained so violently and openly before, such as the creation of « dynasties », « worshiping of some of us », fighting around to be at the « helm of affairs », «money misuse », « lack of transparency » etc… The yogis who dared mention these problems at times in the past were just labelled as negative yogis.
But now that Shri Adi Shakti has left us, the situation is different about Her family members, though later on in the history of SY She gave responsibilities to some of them. These days, collectively signed letters, individual letters, petitions, have been and are pouring more and more everyday on Facebook or various websites, becoming repulsive literature and worsening by every passing day.
Petitions, collective letters don’t fit in SY whatever the reason, and are certainly not Mother’s methods. If She were still physically with us, she would blast those who have started this and then their followers, and would throw them out of SY. Sadly enough, it was initiated by a few of us who were allowed for years to receive the best attention and privileges from Her and Her family. These human methods belong to trade-unions, political parties, social work and so on, but they do not fit at all in the spiritual field unless we want to transform SY in a new catholic church with a Peter, a Paul and a pope, or else in the Muslim community we know with sunnis fighting shias.
There are other softer ways to sort things out.
Moreover, Mother was always very strict and uncompromising with whoever criticized or disturbed the work of the leaders, even when they were very wrong, we yogis from the crowd were not allowed to form groups and turn against them, so we gradually learned to cool down, swallow our discomforts, be patient, forgive, share and accept the situations the way they were, because our individual and bloated egos cannot always triumph, can they ? Maybe these rules from Mother do not apply to some of us, I don’t know, because one day the first slogan of the anti-family campaign appeared to be : « Sir CP will destroy SY, Mother said it to me 30 years ago ! » someone said. Mother also said in the early days in London that whenever there was an argument between Her and Her husband, even the deities did not interfere and stepped aside.
So it is very encouraging to see that some of us have gone beyond the state of deities to start correcting Sir CP and now Her whole family. People can evolve or not in 30 years, it depends. But isn’t it funny that we are able to remember the things that suit us at a particular time of our needs, and forget the incalculable number of times when Mother praised Her Family members and described their beautiful qualities too ? Those who have heard some of it in private with Mother should come forward and tell us about it, just to create a balance and allow all of us to COOL DOWN, because nobody is perfect yet, and will have to face Her alone one day.
Had we ever felt so far that Sir CP was perturbing or destroying our personal evolution as yogis ? (because the masses were never in touch with him, they were carefully kept away from Mother’s environment by some of the happy few who accuse him today). Everyone can introspect and answer such a question in his heart, but we have had several sad instances instead showing that dominating people in SY disturbed greatly the peace of others in various countries during the last 40 years. We could write a book about it if people were revengeful, but it won’t happen because we have better things to do.
Sir CP passed away some time after that claim, on a Monday morning after Guru puja in Cabella. Several main coordinators who were then present distinguished themselves by ignoring the event, not paying their respect to our Divine Mother’s husband while they did it in a letter (I heard, but is it true ?) to Nelson Mandela later on when he passed away. Whatever it is, and despite the extraordinary calibre of N.Mandela, the job of being Shri Adi Shakti’s husband on earth was far more tricky and demanding, because it is a hundred times more difficult and delicate to help a Divine Incarnation establish the Resurrection of human beings on earth than sacrifice one’s own life for human rights for which everyone can only agree.
But as far as meeting their divine nature, human beings are reluctant or not so interested. So the real heroes of the XXI century and decades to come are now those who will be brave enough to get Self-realisation and encourage its spreading, and not so much those who will fight for human rights like in the past, though they are doing useful work for the society, because Sahaja Yoga is the highest and ultimate human right to achieve in the history of evolution.
Had we ever felt so far that Sir CP was perturbing or destroying our personal evolution as yogis ? (because the masses were never in touch with him, they were carefully kept away from Mother’s environment by some of the happy few who accuse him today). Everyone can introspect and answer such a question in his heart, but we have had several sad instances instead showing that dominating people in SY disturbed greatly the peace of others in various countries during the last 40 years. We could write a book about it if people were revengeful, but it won’t happen because we have better things to do.
Sir CP passed away some time after that claim, on a Monday morning after Guru puja in Cabella. Several main coordinators who were then present distinguished themselves by ignoring the event, not paying their respect to our Divine Mother’s husband while they did it in a letter (I heard, but is it true ?) to Nelson Mandela later on when he passed away. Whatever it is, and despite the extraordinary calibre of N.Mandela, the job of being Shri Adi Shakti’s husband on earth was far more tricky and demanding, because it is a hundred times more difficult and delicate to help a Divine Incarnation establish the Resurrection of human beings on earth than sacrifice one’s own life for human rights for which everyone can only agree.
But as far as meeting their divine nature, human beings are reluctant or not so interested. So the real heroes of the XXI century and decades to come are now those who will be brave enough to get Self-realisation and encourage its spreading, and not so much those who will fight for human rights like in the past, though they are doing useful work for the society, because Sahaja Yoga is the highest and ultimate human right to achieve in the history of evolution.
So it’s not for me to judge, but it was a strange thing to witness the hostility of those who were supposed to represent our collectivities on the day Mother took Sir CP away. Had She been alive, would She have not gone to his funerals ? So did Her consort have time to destroy SY before he departed ? I don’t know, but we yogis are pretty much alive and left with plenty of time and energy to destroy our Mother’s work in the future.
And what do we know, but some years before She left us, Mother perhaps talked to several members of Her family, and not only to one in particular, about the various main accusers which have declared war today, and in a very severe manner that could put them to real shame and deep embarrassment if those very same members started spreading around what they have heard from Her.
But, as we can see, they don’t, they don’t feel proud of detaining such statements, nor do they feel the need to retaliate so far at a time when they are so much harassed and persecuted, because they have culture, good manners, and decency. After all, they have been brought up by Her, haven’t they ? But how long can they bear such insults and keep silent, because at one point it becomes very unhealthy for all of us. (I have to insert at this point of my letter that Anand has opened up recently to try to stop or at least slow down the growing and mad tsunami which has been flooding our Sangham for several years now.
It has been a shock for some of us because it was unexpected as he has a soft, tolerant and patient nature, yet maybe he has only referred to a few amongst other Mother’s statements about some of us, this out of decency. So, is his straightforward and strong invitation to cool down only based on anger, imbalance, or attachment as some have replied without wasting time ? Because for some of us criticism and defamation is a birthright and in some cases a profession, while others are completely denied the right to say stop, once in a while, when it is going too far, and will be accused of the same criticism, anger, emotional weakness, this, that, etc… Again it is for everyone to see for himself). I’ve seen myself how some of Mother’s family members treat people who come close to them, we should all be sent to their homes for training and learn good manners from them, because whether some of us like it or not, there you feel Mother’s presence and touch, no doubt about it.
Now if destruction means for Sir CP having given away Cabella to Europe, New-Jersey house to the USA, Pratisthan to India (to name the most important ones) then he is a « Maha Destroyer » indeed. At a time when the agitators were spreading he was misusing the Royalties money and securing his family’s future by trying to extract whatever he could from SY, there he came suddenly offering on a tray to the collective a private property like Pratisthan worth a huge amount of money. Had Pratishthan been put on the market, the tycoons of Mumbai would have rushed to buy it at any price.
This private property was built with Sir CP’s money and destined to the family as we all know. We can then understand the position of his eldest daughter Kalpana who wanted to keep it as it was a private home, that was very fair and justified, but somehow it ended up being given to us. So who is losing in this matter ??? The yogis who accuse the family to devour SY’s money ??? We are fortunate to keep the Mekka of SY in India for the future generations, as well as Cabella the Mekka in Europe, both are sacred and highly vibrated places.
But given the ungratefulness, one wonders if, in the end, Sir CP should not have sold instead all the properties and given the money to his family for good. Finished ! Then we would have had the clear and true example of what a « greedy entity » the family was indeed as some declare, and we would be wandering around the world like the people of Moses in the past, looking for water to quench our dry throats, and camping sites or forests to pitch our tents to celebrate our festivals. The family members do not boast when they give money to SY, this is the « problem », so it is why it is so easy to be misguided or mesmerized by the most influential murmuring souls amongst us.
Massive amounts of money were given by Sir CP to Centrassi school or Cabella foundation, also to contribute to the purchase of Bloxham farm in England and so on… So if this is the case, why are those who have witnessed these contributions so shy to step forward and report openly such acts ? The same thing when we hear these days that Sir CP’s daughter Sadhana pockets the fees of Centrassi or Dharamsala when instead she has actually donated substantial amounts of money and has filled trucks of equipment to improve the material conditions of the place (even if now some assert it is useless), those who have seen it should come forward too and report it, and not only the principal’s situation and its transparency.
About transparency itself, many yogis wonder why the western protectors of our Sangham apply double standard concerning our Sahaj institutions in India. Several of them turn to me for an answer on this matter, thinking I know everything about it since I am in Mother’s family, but Her daughters never put pressure on Djamel and me to help or support them with whatever responsibilities they have been given by their mother (Shri Mataji knows I speak the truth) nor do we belong to any board or committee and have contacts with their members.
So many yogis wonder why our western protectors encourage vividly parents to remove their children from Dharamsala while they never invited yogis to stop from going to Vashi after the changes that happened last year and kept shy, detached and elusive about the whole situtation. The
Vashi management were the most transparent people in answering the allegations towards them but it did not help them at all. Many yogis also wonder why the former Vashi managers were invited by our Western protectors to «reconcile » with their local committee whereas they don’t encourage the same attitude between ISPS principals and their board.
They wonder why so much propaganda is done to keep the actual ISPS principals while nothing of the kind happened regarding Vashi last year though the management had been in place for 12 years or so. Watching the show from far away, they wonder if transparency is the real concern of the attackers towards ISPS. They feel it is just a pretext to reach their personal goal and that they don’t care so much about the school itself. But which goal ? The Western protectors only know it and should bring all of us some transparency about it. Still never mind if they don’t want to do it before the human beings that we are, because we are not in a political party, but they should at least answer honestly in their heart to Mother who knows each of our intentions, because the whole thing is becoming uglier by every passing day, and we should stop these « court cases » that are going on in our collectivities.
The crowds are fed up with the prominent brains and their dedicated teams who act like journalists and decide, like the medias, to orientate the collective thinking according to their conflicts and interests of the day. And these strong heads don’t mind if their cruel game destabilise these days the ISPS parents, for instance, since it is the last topic being fuelled in our « Sahaj medias ». Cruel indeed because it requires so much courage and trust in Mother alone to stay nine months a year away from beloved children. Just as the « protectors » left yogis free to go to Vashi hospital or not after the changes last year, they logically also should leave parents free to think for themselves whether to send their children or not to India. None of us has the right to use their personal conflicts with certain yogis or family members to manipulate or destroy any of the institutions established by Mother whether these institutions are in India or elsewhere.
Once Sir CP gave several properties to SY, a few European brains thought it would be « wise » not to encourage the family to sleep anymore in Cabella castle for instance. We never know what could happen then, the family « dynasty » as they say could take over ! They are introducing this word as a new dangerous threat for the future of SY, but it has already been pretty much there since long, because what about the dynasty some prominent ones and their followers have installed for years under our eyes ?
Yet nobody said anything, everybody watches. If some of us just believe in power and ruling like the kings and emperors of the past, then the family becomes a threat to them, because they have Mother’s genes, it is as simple as that. Again if they pretend to protect the whole, then why are they so inaccessible to the whole, so secretive when it comes to their little tricks, but so loud when exposing others, be it Shri Mataji’s family or other yogis who do not agree with them or don’t fall at their feet ? Nothing wrong in disagreeing at times, but it should not be a reason to exclude others.
We need good strong people to give a direction to our collective initiatives, we cannot be hippies hanging in the air. But if someone accepts the position of whatever coordination, he/she should be benevolent, open-hearted and fair to as many as possible, capable to see what is right and what is wrong (nothing in between) and not be dedicated to his/her own selfish purposes or disturbing the collective because he is competing with so an so.
Always a question of coming « First » in the end. Their tricks ? So many of us could expose many painful situations showing that we still behave like ordinary human beings. Just to give an example I have witnessed myself, Mother asked me years ago to write a book She Herself entitled « The light of the Koran ». Well, without going into details not to embarrass anyone, it was an ideal (but painful) position to discover the ruthless politics which were going on in our little Sahaj community, a real man’s world on top of that (by saying so, I’m not even a feminist thanks to my excellent father).
And later on our so-called book committees who are supposed to help and guide are not any better and just a facade giving the collectivities the illusion that everything is under proper control. But the inner reality shows manipulative games of a few of us who are ready to kill other books with their friends for theirs to come first. Shall we have a transparent, simple and innocent committee one day based on the collective spreading of all SY books, whether they are written by men or women, by this one or that one, without conflicts of interests ? May be in the future with our children !
And it so happens that the most manipulative and least transparent of these persons are the very same who jump today at Mother’s family’s throat.
The « First » ! The terrible « First »! It is so comical that we should make films of us at times, we would win awards indeed. Could Shri Mataji’s grandson, Anand, be the « First » then ? Well, this is the big concern of some of us ! I happened to realise this when someone came to me, very worried and with a serious and disturbed look on his face, at the time when our daughter married him. Amongst bold and shocking other things he spit which I do not want to repeat in public, because again I do not want to embarrass the person, I heard : « Anand must not become the prince consort of SY ! ».
Is this the kind of things to say on a reception day when everybody from all tendencies in SY is rejoicing collectively ? But some of us are using these precious and happy times as a « working platform », they cannot leave their mental projections at the door for some time. Poor Anand, he does not have any direct responsibilities in SY and does not push for that or require anything. Yet these are the same people who were welcoming without hesitation his hospitality in the past, happy to squeeze around him or sleep in his room wherever Mother was around the world. Being good-hearted, over generous by nature and open to everyone, how could he have guessed he was then just a passport for them ?
I may sound exaggerating, but the honeymoon is over, proof being that the same people come to him now saying we have to « draw a line » between his family and SY, and this is slowly being encouraged without anyone telling them it is just wrong, because we are so scared of each other. Some of them come and tell him that they « understand SY better than him because they were born in it while he only got his realisation when he was 24 !!! ». « What is so special about you ? » others say arrogantly while he does not try to overpower anyone or never boast about himself being the only grandson of Shri Adi Shakti, never.
Other questions they ask can be so bold that it looks we are going through an audit with inspectors sometimes younger than him. All this did not happen yesterday but already a couple of years ago. Where are our maryadas ? These persons also come shamelessly to him talking ill about his mother and about late Sir CP. It is so inauspicious. Would they have done this when Mother was with us ? No, so why should we start now ? Why can’t we cool down, why are we so afraid and insecure ? Have the rules of the game changed ?
How can one be so low, unforgiving and why ? Is this anger, hatred, jealousy or something else ? Only they know what is in their heart, not me, it is between Mother and them. Don’t we have other beautiful things to do in SY ? We miss so much of the magic in our lives by doing so. Most of the yogis live peacefully, why do we want to disturb them with such poison ? I can swear (if I lie Mother knows), I have never never ever heard Sir CP utter a word against those of us who were after his life while we were in his company during the last years of his life, not even the slightest hint.
Instead he would talk about the general situation in the world and mainly, yes mainly about Mother Herself. Never never ever did he ask Djamel, my daughter, my son or myself to write such or such things to such or such people or group of people attacking him, hiding the fact he is the brain behind all this writing as some of us yogis are experts in doing so. I never heard him criticising yogis, never.
Comical but profoundly sad about the family’s accommodation and « sleeping business » (because the beds of the family are a problem now) was when one day, one member of the prominent European « inner circle » wrote to Anand asking him to inform one yogi in charge at the foundation to open his bedroom (Anand’s) at the castle for another one from the « inner circle » coming from a far away country. All the hotels were full in Cabella and he had nowhere to sleep.
Nothing wrong as such, but it happened that this person was one of the very first people to launch a worldwide attack against Sir CP. Maybe I am stupid, but how can we act so low and with so little dignity and self-esteem ? How can we be such beggars and cheap personalities as to ask someone we declare our enemy, to dwell shamelessly in his house as our birthright ? I would rather sleep in the hangar like everyone else.
Same thing in Pratisthan, back in 2009 when Shri Mataji was staying there, some of them (not all of them of course) behaved as if they were the owners of the house, but unlike Shri Mataji’s family, they were arrogant « owners » looking down on everybody, even despising people around, it is better to spare the details, so sad, but I could not believe it was happening to us yogis, « brothers and sisters » as we say. Are we in Loveland or in a firm ?
One day, during one of the joyful 10 ceremonies of Anand and Fatima’s wedding, all of which were attended by Shri Mataji, someone came to me, as serious as a consultant, a specialist, a CEO or whatever we may call this, addressing me like a secretary who had just been appointed for Mother and needed some training in her new job : « Now that you are in Mother’s family, there are a few things you need to know ! » were his words. You freeze when you see the face and the patronising tone of the person, you feel you are in an administration department and not in Loveland at all. I thanked him for his good attention and answered I had eyes to see and a heart to feel, so I would discover things by myself, he need not worry.
Again these persons are the most active against Shri Mataji’s family today. Another time, a yogi sent by the brain of the « inner circle » -because there is always someone at the top of these groups in the end, the brain rarely comes to the front but sends his men instead on special missions- called Anand telling him to stop his mother and grandfather from going to Australia (I was present when that phone call arrived). That would disturb the Sahaj work of the collectivity another one emphasised, plus the fact that people from Burwood ashram would be thrown out on the street because of their staying there, and this could not be imposed to the poor little children in particular.
But what about the attackers gathering people in their houses to stuff their heads about all sorts of things about Mother’s family and the other yogis in charge that they don’t like ? Where is their attention ? Apart from gossiping like administrators on material matters concerning the family, they spread rumours about their private life too, like the best tabloids do. And this has been going on for several years now around the world, but does anyone complain about this or advise them to stop ? Or else when they discourage some yogis to go to Anand’s house ? Do other yogis control who enters the houses of these angry people ? Not at all ! Yet maybe it would be time to do so if we want to protect the future of SY, one wonders.
Djamel and I slept at Cabella castle two or three times. What to do if your son-in-law lives there ? Or lived there I should say, because some find it normal that yogis only should occupy the place now. Should we have refused the invitation of Mother’s family and go back to our tent in the field behind the hangar as we always did in the past ?
Should we not have used their bathrooms, go and wash instead in the river as we gladly always did when the queue was too long at the shower area in the camp ? Another person from the usual European « inner circle » having stepped in the castle so many times came to us one day in Cabella piazza asking : « Where are you sleeping Djamel ? » I thought : « how kind of him ! He has never been concerned before about where we have been sleeping all these years ! » He himself has booked for life a room in one of the hotels of Cabella, never thinking that maybe some pregnant ladies, elderly yogis or other people would need at times a bed in the village instead of sleeping on the floor in the hangar or in a tent. But all the hotels are booked in advance for life by some of us.
Everybody can see they have always had and chosen more comfort than the crowd, but nobody has ever felt jealous or started communist-styled petitions now that Mother has left us : « come on, let’s throw them out, come on, let’s take it in turn with the beds in Cabella hotels and houses ! ». Yogis don’t think on these lines, they have joy in their heart the moment they step in Cabella, they don’t think of these material needs and can adapt to any circumstances. Anyway that same person came and checked on us in the evening in the empty castle as if we were dubious people or maybe thieves, I don’t know.
We offered him tea in Mother’s dining-room and chatted nicely together though… The dining-room : one morning we came down with Anand and his wife to see that a committee was being served breakfast around the big table. Their presence was fully justified as they had to fulfil their duty for the week-end, and again nothing wrong at all for them eating there. But nobody proposed Anand anything at all. Moreover, one of the committee members had a room just opposite Anand’s on the upper floor. Again nothing wrong at all for yogis sleeping there, but the question is : how does Shri Mataji feel when she sees Her grandson (or other members of her blood family) treated like a stranger in his own house that he too gave gracefully to SY ? And even if some yogis carry on at times opening the house and treat the family like in the past, they do it at their own risk, because the negative forces are powerful against them, and of course you can feel hostility in the air. Such a waste of energies, so exhausting for everyone and so ugly.
Never, never, ever have I seen Anand or most of the other members of his family being resentful about all the properties given away, on the contrary. « But it is normal these properties should come back to us, because it is the money we gave to SY ! » some people say. Does it mean then we gave it to Mother to get it back as a kind of a contract or something similar, like pure administrators do ? Many of us understand that what is given is given to bless our nabhis, because yes, by giving, we receive. And this was proved once again by Shri Mataji’s family who could have made the choice to sell everything and pocket the money.
Again, such ungratefulness and the word is weak ! Thrown out of the properties they gave, one may say, instead of carrying on like in the past when Mother gathered family and yogis in Her house. Such joy in those days ! But we are not even able now to respect the basic rules of hospitality such as cooking a simple meal for them, whereas they always invited whoever stepped in at the last minute, in the past, to share their meals and more. It is something disgraceful and heartbreaking to watch when we think that Mother and Sir CP fed and offered presents to thousands of yogis for more than 40 years. Where are our maryadas ?
Of course the most troublesome today were the most privileged ones in the past who were proud to come forward and share their privacy or managed to get the exclusive right to accompany Shri Mataji’s daughters and grandchildren to visit places or whatever. This was the unique privilege of a dynasty of yogis who have forgotten too quickly how much they practised in those days what one could call the « Didiism" : « I was with Kalpana didi and… ! I was with Sadhana didi and so on and so forth… ! »
Also this money business should stop once and for all, it is so low. Some still think like materialistic hippies and communists, materialistic indeed more than everyone else in the end, because hippies and communists’ attention is always and only on what others own or don’t, instead of coming out of it as yogis should do and experience that Reality is different, that Matter is available to each one of us if and when needed, at our own level.
Mother spent years teaching us relentlessly, showing us and proving to us the poetry and wonders of the Laxmi principle, in such various and miraculous ways. The members of Her family agree to say that if they have such wealth today, it is only thanks to Her. Of course Shri Mahalaxmi incarnated on earth as Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi, and she was not going to leave Her blood family bare feet on the street and improve the material conditions of Her disciples alone. She Herself said that She had so much Laxmi within that She was fed up with it at times and did not know what to do with it. So it is pure logic that Her family members are naturally the first to benefit from it. They don’t have to ask, it just comes spontaneously to them.
And whether some of us like it or not, She chose Sir CP as a husband and he worked very hard to stand by Her and match Her expectations in terms of generosity towards us since the early days of SY. If one of us has ever given as much as him to SY and to individual yogis, also by having his house like him invaded by so many people from all walks of life, and not only by a few chosen ones or close friends as some yogis do, then he should raise his hand. As far as I am concerned, several lifetimes will pass before I can raise my hand. Also whether some of us like it or no, this is what I have discovered :
Mother wants the BEST for them materially and provides the BEST only, like a kind of reward from past lives, that’s the only explanation I see in their case. After all, she must have chosen them for a good reason out of billions of human beings on earth. And if we don’t respect this, or don’t want to, things can go wrong very quickly for us. We should be careful, because Mother is physically no more with us, but a protocol still has to be respected towards them. And whether we like it or not, yes, she has placed Herself a lot of money in their hands, not only a few rupees, dollars or euros, some leaders have seen Her doing so in the past.
She has showered them with the full blessings of Shri Mahalaxmi and if some of us cannot bear it today, well, it means they are directly insulting our Divine Mother because She is the One who started expressing and materialising such wealth in Her lifetime, unlike many other incarnations or Prophets (sorry if I repeat Anand’s words in one of his messages, but I had written the same myself when I started this letter).
Mother’s family does not need us nor our money at all. We can take everything away from them if we wish, money, houses, furniture, cars etc… Everything will come back to them some way or the other because it is their karma so far. All this is beyond money. I could give (and not only me but better still all those who have been close to them for so many years because I’ve only known them since recently) examples of these miraculous situations, but this is another chapter.
What is MATTER after all ? Another comical episode on this subject (one more film we could make about our cheap and frivolous attention) is that one day, a Maserati car appeared in front of the castle. A Maserati ! Wouah ! Sadhana’s new car ! The tongues started immediately moving for the most stressed people amongst us. I heard (but I have not seen) that the flamboyant Maserati was even brought up as a topic in some seminar.
The car did not stay long because of the rumours and it was sold some time later. So the activists thought they had once more exposed Mother’s daughter living on Sahaj money. But it never occurred to them that the unusual choice of a Maserati by its owner might have been a divine trick to expose our instincts, pettiness and show how envious some of us are sometimes and give importance to matter. But once again the most disturbed by the situation and mainly their acquaintances who don’t hesitate to show up at the castle whenever they like, flocked around the object like little bees on a piece of sugar, and were the first ones to sit inside for a few minutes to try it. So what should we conclude when we see this ?
I myself got into the car once to go from Cabella to Genoa house. Well, it had four wheels, seats and an engine like any other vehicle. Like many women, I’m not impressed by cars like men, though I enjoyed the comfort of the Maserati, because we should not be stupid either, it was far better than cycling all the way under the sun. But what I enjoyed most on the way was the beautiful scenic view of the green mountains with their colourful Italian houses (Italy is my favourite country in the world). So the car was sold after it had exposed our behaviour once more, for who thinks some family members need such a car at any cost ? They don’t. It was bringing more headache upon them than pleasure ? So ok, let’s get rid of the stupid object, finished ! And they chose peace.
We don’t even realise that Mother may also use Her family (they are puppets in Her hands, like all of us) to test us, so we should be careful. If we look closely at the reactions of some of us about that car which is just Matter, we can see that we are jealous of what in the end ? Of what I would call in French « un arrangement moléculaire », or « molecular arrangement » because whether we enter a Maserati, a Peugeot, a Tata, a truck, even a rickshaw or else, we are in the same seated position and will reach everywhere we want to go, the ganas are there to help and assist us. All this metal will finish in a scrap yard one day just like our bodies in a cemetery, and I never saw the family crying after the lost car, it was not even in their mind, they have other things to do.
Then one day came another insulting allegation in a Sahaj forum : Mother’s second daughter was stealing furniture from Cabella house. How dare she, since everything belongs to SY now ? Of course a few items which rightly belongs to her became a theft. Mother has showered several lucky yogis with presents for years, has the crowd ever felt jealous ? Are we going to ask these yogis now to give everything back and lock it somewhere in the castle, in Pratishtan, or in other properties given to SY ? Not at all, also because everybody understands that Her divine vibrations in objects protect and bring auspiciousness wherever they are kept, be it in X’s house or Y’s house, it does not matter.
And what do we know, but some years before She left us, Mother perhaps talked to several members of Her family, and not only to one in particular, about the various main accusers which have declared war today, and in a very severe manner that could put them to real shame and deep embarrassment if those very same members started spreading around what they have heard from Her.
But, as we can see, they don’t, they don’t feel proud of detaining such statements, nor do they feel the need to retaliate so far at a time when they are so much harassed and persecuted, because they have culture, good manners, and decency. After all, they have been brought up by Her, haven’t they ? But how long can they bear such insults and keep silent, because at one point it becomes very unhealthy for all of us. (I have to insert at this point of my letter that Anand has opened up recently to try to stop or at least slow down the growing and mad tsunami which has been flooding our Sangham for several years now.
It has been a shock for some of us because it was unexpected as he has a soft, tolerant and patient nature, yet maybe he has only referred to a few amongst other Mother’s statements about some of us, this out of decency. So, is his straightforward and strong invitation to cool down only based on anger, imbalance, or attachment as some have replied without wasting time ? Because for some of us criticism and defamation is a birthright and in some cases a profession, while others are completely denied the right to say stop, once in a while, when it is going too far, and will be accused of the same criticism, anger, emotional weakness, this, that, etc… Again it is for everyone to see for himself). I’ve seen myself how some of Mother’s family members treat people who come close to them, we should all be sent to their homes for training and learn good manners from them, because whether some of us like it or not, there you feel Mother’s presence and touch, no doubt about it.
Now if destruction means for Sir CP having given away Cabella to Europe, New-Jersey house to the USA, Pratisthan to India (to name the most important ones) then he is a « Maha Destroyer » indeed. At a time when the agitators were spreading he was misusing the Royalties money and securing his family’s future by trying to extract whatever he could from SY, there he came suddenly offering on a tray to the collective a private property like Pratisthan worth a huge amount of money. Had Pratishthan been put on the market, the tycoons of Mumbai would have rushed to buy it at any price.
This private property was built with Sir CP’s money and destined to the family as we all know. We can then understand the position of his eldest daughter Kalpana who wanted to keep it as it was a private home, that was very fair and justified, but somehow it ended up being given to us. So who is losing in this matter ??? The yogis who accuse the family to devour SY’s money ??? We are fortunate to keep the Mekka of SY in India for the future generations, as well as Cabella the Mekka in Europe, both are sacred and highly vibrated places.
But given the ungratefulness, one wonders if, in the end, Sir CP should not have sold instead all the properties and given the money to his family for good. Finished ! Then we would have had the clear and true example of what a « greedy entity » the family was indeed as some declare, and we would be wandering around the world like the people of Moses in the past, looking for water to quench our dry throats, and camping sites or forests to pitch our tents to celebrate our festivals. The family members do not boast when they give money to SY, this is the « problem », so it is why it is so easy to be misguided or mesmerized by the most influential murmuring souls amongst us.
Massive amounts of money were given by Sir CP to Centrassi school or Cabella foundation, also to contribute to the purchase of Bloxham farm in England and so on… So if this is the case, why are those who have witnessed these contributions so shy to step forward and report openly such acts ? The same thing when we hear these days that Sir CP’s daughter Sadhana pockets the fees of Centrassi or Dharamsala when instead she has actually donated substantial amounts of money and has filled trucks of equipment to improve the material conditions of the place (even if now some assert it is useless), those who have seen it should come forward too and report it, and not only the principal’s situation and its transparency.
About transparency itself, many yogis wonder why the western protectors of our Sangham apply double standard concerning our Sahaj institutions in India. Several of them turn to me for an answer on this matter, thinking I know everything about it since I am in Mother’s family, but Her daughters never put pressure on Djamel and me to help or support them with whatever responsibilities they have been given by their mother (Shri Mataji knows I speak the truth) nor do we belong to any board or committee and have contacts with their members.
So many yogis wonder why our western protectors encourage vividly parents to remove their children from Dharamsala while they never invited yogis to stop from going to Vashi after the changes that happened last year and kept shy, detached and elusive about the whole situtation. The
Vashi management were the most transparent people in answering the allegations towards them but it did not help them at all. Many yogis also wonder why the former Vashi managers were invited by our Western protectors to «reconcile » with their local committee whereas they don’t encourage the same attitude between ISPS principals and their board.
They wonder why so much propaganda is done to keep the actual ISPS principals while nothing of the kind happened regarding Vashi last year though the management had been in place for 12 years or so. Watching the show from far away, they wonder if transparency is the real concern of the attackers towards ISPS. They feel it is just a pretext to reach their personal goal and that they don’t care so much about the school itself. But which goal ? The Western protectors only know it and should bring all of us some transparency about it. Still never mind if they don’t want to do it before the human beings that we are, because we are not in a political party, but they should at least answer honestly in their heart to Mother who knows each of our intentions, because the whole thing is becoming uglier by every passing day, and we should stop these « court cases » that are going on in our collectivities.
The crowds are fed up with the prominent brains and their dedicated teams who act like journalists and decide, like the medias, to orientate the collective thinking according to their conflicts and interests of the day. And these strong heads don’t mind if their cruel game destabilise these days the ISPS parents, for instance, since it is the last topic being fuelled in our « Sahaj medias ». Cruel indeed because it requires so much courage and trust in Mother alone to stay nine months a year away from beloved children. Just as the « protectors » left yogis free to go to Vashi hospital or not after the changes last year, they logically also should leave parents free to think for themselves whether to send their children or not to India. None of us has the right to use their personal conflicts with certain yogis or family members to manipulate or destroy any of the institutions established by Mother whether these institutions are in India or elsewhere.
Once Sir CP gave several properties to SY, a few European brains thought it would be « wise » not to encourage the family to sleep anymore in Cabella castle for instance. We never know what could happen then, the family « dynasty » as they say could take over ! They are introducing this word as a new dangerous threat for the future of SY, but it has already been pretty much there since long, because what about the dynasty some prominent ones and their followers have installed for years under our eyes ?
Yet nobody said anything, everybody watches. If some of us just believe in power and ruling like the kings and emperors of the past, then the family becomes a threat to them, because they have Mother’s genes, it is as simple as that. Again if they pretend to protect the whole, then why are they so inaccessible to the whole, so secretive when it comes to their little tricks, but so loud when exposing others, be it Shri Mataji’s family or other yogis who do not agree with them or don’t fall at their feet ? Nothing wrong in disagreeing at times, but it should not be a reason to exclude others.
We need good strong people to give a direction to our collective initiatives, we cannot be hippies hanging in the air. But if someone accepts the position of whatever coordination, he/she should be benevolent, open-hearted and fair to as many as possible, capable to see what is right and what is wrong (nothing in between) and not be dedicated to his/her own selfish purposes or disturbing the collective because he is competing with so an so.
Always a question of coming « First » in the end. Their tricks ? So many of us could expose many painful situations showing that we still behave like ordinary human beings. Just to give an example I have witnessed myself, Mother asked me years ago to write a book She Herself entitled « The light of the Koran ». Well, without going into details not to embarrass anyone, it was an ideal (but painful) position to discover the ruthless politics which were going on in our little Sahaj community, a real man’s world on top of that (by saying so, I’m not even a feminist thanks to my excellent father).
And later on our so-called book committees who are supposed to help and guide are not any better and just a facade giving the collectivities the illusion that everything is under proper control. But the inner reality shows manipulative games of a few of us who are ready to kill other books with their friends for theirs to come first. Shall we have a transparent, simple and innocent committee one day based on the collective spreading of all SY books, whether they are written by men or women, by this one or that one, without conflicts of interests ? May be in the future with our children !
And it so happens that the most manipulative and least transparent of these persons are the very same who jump today at Mother’s family’s throat.
The « First » ! The terrible « First »! It is so comical that we should make films of us at times, we would win awards indeed. Could Shri Mataji’s grandson, Anand, be the « First » then ? Well, this is the big concern of some of us ! I happened to realise this when someone came to me, very worried and with a serious and disturbed look on his face, at the time when our daughter married him. Amongst bold and shocking other things he spit which I do not want to repeat in public, because again I do not want to embarrass the person, I heard : « Anand must not become the prince consort of SY ! ».
Is this the kind of things to say on a reception day when everybody from all tendencies in SY is rejoicing collectively ? But some of us are using these precious and happy times as a « working platform », they cannot leave their mental projections at the door for some time. Poor Anand, he does not have any direct responsibilities in SY and does not push for that or require anything. Yet these are the same people who were welcoming without hesitation his hospitality in the past, happy to squeeze around him or sleep in his room wherever Mother was around the world. Being good-hearted, over generous by nature and open to everyone, how could he have guessed he was then just a passport for them ?
I may sound exaggerating, but the honeymoon is over, proof being that the same people come to him now saying we have to « draw a line » between his family and SY, and this is slowly being encouraged without anyone telling them it is just wrong, because we are so scared of each other. Some of them come and tell him that they « understand SY better than him because they were born in it while he only got his realisation when he was 24 !!! ». « What is so special about you ? » others say arrogantly while he does not try to overpower anyone or never boast about himself being the only grandson of Shri Adi Shakti, never.
Other questions they ask can be so bold that it looks we are going through an audit with inspectors sometimes younger than him. All this did not happen yesterday but already a couple of years ago. Where are our maryadas ? These persons also come shamelessly to him talking ill about his mother and about late Sir CP. It is so inauspicious. Would they have done this when Mother was with us ? No, so why should we start now ? Why can’t we cool down, why are we so afraid and insecure ? Have the rules of the game changed ?
How can one be so low, unforgiving and why ? Is this anger, hatred, jealousy or something else ? Only they know what is in their heart, not me, it is between Mother and them. Don’t we have other beautiful things to do in SY ? We miss so much of the magic in our lives by doing so. Most of the yogis live peacefully, why do we want to disturb them with such poison ? I can swear (if I lie Mother knows), I have never never ever heard Sir CP utter a word against those of us who were after his life while we were in his company during the last years of his life, not even the slightest hint.
Instead he would talk about the general situation in the world and mainly, yes mainly about Mother Herself. Never never ever did he ask Djamel, my daughter, my son or myself to write such or such things to such or such people or group of people attacking him, hiding the fact he is the brain behind all this writing as some of us yogis are experts in doing so. I never heard him criticising yogis, never.
Comical but profoundly sad about the family’s accommodation and « sleeping business » (because the beds of the family are a problem now) was when one day, one member of the prominent European « inner circle » wrote to Anand asking him to inform one yogi in charge at the foundation to open his bedroom (Anand’s) at the castle for another one from the « inner circle » coming from a far away country. All the hotels were full in Cabella and he had nowhere to sleep.
Nothing wrong as such, but it happened that this person was one of the very first people to launch a worldwide attack against Sir CP. Maybe I am stupid, but how can we act so low and with so little dignity and self-esteem ? How can we be such beggars and cheap personalities as to ask someone we declare our enemy, to dwell shamelessly in his house as our birthright ? I would rather sleep in the hangar like everyone else.
Same thing in Pratisthan, back in 2009 when Shri Mataji was staying there, some of them (not all of them of course) behaved as if they were the owners of the house, but unlike Shri Mataji’s family, they were arrogant « owners » looking down on everybody, even despising people around, it is better to spare the details, so sad, but I could not believe it was happening to us yogis, « brothers and sisters » as we say. Are we in Loveland or in a firm ?
One day, during one of the joyful 10 ceremonies of Anand and Fatima’s wedding, all of which were attended by Shri Mataji, someone came to me, as serious as a consultant, a specialist, a CEO or whatever we may call this, addressing me like a secretary who had just been appointed for Mother and needed some training in her new job : « Now that you are in Mother’s family, there are a few things you need to know ! » were his words. You freeze when you see the face and the patronising tone of the person, you feel you are in an administration department and not in Loveland at all. I thanked him for his good attention and answered I had eyes to see and a heart to feel, so I would discover things by myself, he need not worry.
Again these persons are the most active against Shri Mataji’s family today. Another time, a yogi sent by the brain of the « inner circle » -because there is always someone at the top of these groups in the end, the brain rarely comes to the front but sends his men instead on special missions- called Anand telling him to stop his mother and grandfather from going to Australia (I was present when that phone call arrived). That would disturb the Sahaj work of the collectivity another one emphasised, plus the fact that people from Burwood ashram would be thrown out on the street because of their staying there, and this could not be imposed to the poor little children in particular.
But what about the attackers gathering people in their houses to stuff their heads about all sorts of things about Mother’s family and the other yogis in charge that they don’t like ? Where is their attention ? Apart from gossiping like administrators on material matters concerning the family, they spread rumours about their private life too, like the best tabloids do. And this has been going on for several years now around the world, but does anyone complain about this or advise them to stop ? Or else when they discourage some yogis to go to Anand’s house ? Do other yogis control who enters the houses of these angry people ? Not at all ! Yet maybe it would be time to do so if we want to protect the future of SY, one wonders.
Djamel and I slept at Cabella castle two or three times. What to do if your son-in-law lives there ? Or lived there I should say, because some find it normal that yogis only should occupy the place now. Should we have refused the invitation of Mother’s family and go back to our tent in the field behind the hangar as we always did in the past ?
Should we not have used their bathrooms, go and wash instead in the river as we gladly always did when the queue was too long at the shower area in the camp ? Another person from the usual European « inner circle » having stepped in the castle so many times came to us one day in Cabella piazza asking : « Where are you sleeping Djamel ? » I thought : « how kind of him ! He has never been concerned before about where we have been sleeping all these years ! » He himself has booked for life a room in one of the hotels of Cabella, never thinking that maybe some pregnant ladies, elderly yogis or other people would need at times a bed in the village instead of sleeping on the floor in the hangar or in a tent. But all the hotels are booked in advance for life by some of us.
Everybody can see they have always had and chosen more comfort than the crowd, but nobody has ever felt jealous or started communist-styled petitions now that Mother has left us : « come on, let’s throw them out, come on, let’s take it in turn with the beds in Cabella hotels and houses ! ». Yogis don’t think on these lines, they have joy in their heart the moment they step in Cabella, they don’t think of these material needs and can adapt to any circumstances. Anyway that same person came and checked on us in the evening in the empty castle as if we were dubious people or maybe thieves, I don’t know.
We offered him tea in Mother’s dining-room and chatted nicely together though… The dining-room : one morning we came down with Anand and his wife to see that a committee was being served breakfast around the big table. Their presence was fully justified as they had to fulfil their duty for the week-end, and again nothing wrong at all for them eating there. But nobody proposed Anand anything at all. Moreover, one of the committee members had a room just opposite Anand’s on the upper floor. Again nothing wrong at all for yogis sleeping there, but the question is : how does Shri Mataji feel when she sees Her grandson (or other members of her blood family) treated like a stranger in his own house that he too gave gracefully to SY ? And even if some yogis carry on at times opening the house and treat the family like in the past, they do it at their own risk, because the negative forces are powerful against them, and of course you can feel hostility in the air. Such a waste of energies, so exhausting for everyone and so ugly.
Never, never, ever have I seen Anand or most of the other members of his family being resentful about all the properties given away, on the contrary. « But it is normal these properties should come back to us, because it is the money we gave to SY ! » some people say. Does it mean then we gave it to Mother to get it back as a kind of a contract or something similar, like pure administrators do ? Many of us understand that what is given is given to bless our nabhis, because yes, by giving, we receive. And this was proved once again by Shri Mataji’s family who could have made the choice to sell everything and pocket the money.
Again, such ungratefulness and the word is weak ! Thrown out of the properties they gave, one may say, instead of carrying on like in the past when Mother gathered family and yogis in Her house. Such joy in those days ! But we are not even able now to respect the basic rules of hospitality such as cooking a simple meal for them, whereas they always invited whoever stepped in at the last minute, in the past, to share their meals and more. It is something disgraceful and heartbreaking to watch when we think that Mother and Sir CP fed and offered presents to thousands of yogis for more than 40 years. Where are our maryadas ?
Of course the most troublesome today were the most privileged ones in the past who were proud to come forward and share their privacy or managed to get the exclusive right to accompany Shri Mataji’s daughters and grandchildren to visit places or whatever. This was the unique privilege of a dynasty of yogis who have forgotten too quickly how much they practised in those days what one could call the « Didiism" : « I was with Kalpana didi and… ! I was with Sadhana didi and so on and so forth… ! »
Also this money business should stop once and for all, it is so low. Some still think like materialistic hippies and communists, materialistic indeed more than everyone else in the end, because hippies and communists’ attention is always and only on what others own or don’t, instead of coming out of it as yogis should do and experience that Reality is different, that Matter is available to each one of us if and when needed, at our own level.
Mother spent years teaching us relentlessly, showing us and proving to us the poetry and wonders of the Laxmi principle, in such various and miraculous ways. The members of Her family agree to say that if they have such wealth today, it is only thanks to Her. Of course Shri Mahalaxmi incarnated on earth as Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi, and she was not going to leave Her blood family bare feet on the street and improve the material conditions of Her disciples alone. She Herself said that She had so much Laxmi within that She was fed up with it at times and did not know what to do with it. So it is pure logic that Her family members are naturally the first to benefit from it. They don’t have to ask, it just comes spontaneously to them.
And whether some of us like it or not, She chose Sir CP as a husband and he worked very hard to stand by Her and match Her expectations in terms of generosity towards us since the early days of SY. If one of us has ever given as much as him to SY and to individual yogis, also by having his house like him invaded by so many people from all walks of life, and not only by a few chosen ones or close friends as some yogis do, then he should raise his hand. As far as I am concerned, several lifetimes will pass before I can raise my hand. Also whether some of us like it or no, this is what I have discovered :
Mother wants the BEST for them materially and provides the BEST only, like a kind of reward from past lives, that’s the only explanation I see in their case. After all, she must have chosen them for a good reason out of billions of human beings on earth. And if we don’t respect this, or don’t want to, things can go wrong very quickly for us. We should be careful, because Mother is physically no more with us, but a protocol still has to be respected towards them. And whether we like it or not, yes, she has placed Herself a lot of money in their hands, not only a few rupees, dollars or euros, some leaders have seen Her doing so in the past.
She has showered them with the full blessings of Shri Mahalaxmi and if some of us cannot bear it today, well, it means they are directly insulting our Divine Mother because She is the One who started expressing and materialising such wealth in Her lifetime, unlike many other incarnations or Prophets (sorry if I repeat Anand’s words in one of his messages, but I had written the same myself when I started this letter).
Mother’s family does not need us nor our money at all. We can take everything away from them if we wish, money, houses, furniture, cars etc… Everything will come back to them some way or the other because it is their karma so far. All this is beyond money. I could give (and not only me but better still all those who have been close to them for so many years because I’ve only known them since recently) examples of these miraculous situations, but this is another chapter.
What is MATTER after all ? Another comical episode on this subject (one more film we could make about our cheap and frivolous attention) is that one day, a Maserati car appeared in front of the castle. A Maserati ! Wouah ! Sadhana’s new car ! The tongues started immediately moving for the most stressed people amongst us. I heard (but I have not seen) that the flamboyant Maserati was even brought up as a topic in some seminar.
The car did not stay long because of the rumours and it was sold some time later. So the activists thought they had once more exposed Mother’s daughter living on Sahaj money. But it never occurred to them that the unusual choice of a Maserati by its owner might have been a divine trick to expose our instincts, pettiness and show how envious some of us are sometimes and give importance to matter. But once again the most disturbed by the situation and mainly their acquaintances who don’t hesitate to show up at the castle whenever they like, flocked around the object like little bees on a piece of sugar, and were the first ones to sit inside for a few minutes to try it. So what should we conclude when we see this ?
I myself got into the car once to go from Cabella to Genoa house. Well, it had four wheels, seats and an engine like any other vehicle. Like many women, I’m not impressed by cars like men, though I enjoyed the comfort of the Maserati, because we should not be stupid either, it was far better than cycling all the way under the sun. But what I enjoyed most on the way was the beautiful scenic view of the green mountains with their colourful Italian houses (Italy is my favourite country in the world). So the car was sold after it had exposed our behaviour once more, for who thinks some family members need such a car at any cost ? They don’t. It was bringing more headache upon them than pleasure ? So ok, let’s get rid of the stupid object, finished ! And they chose peace.
We don’t even realise that Mother may also use Her family (they are puppets in Her hands, like all of us) to test us, so we should be careful. If we look closely at the reactions of some of us about that car which is just Matter, we can see that we are jealous of what in the end ? Of what I would call in French « un arrangement moléculaire », or « molecular arrangement » because whether we enter a Maserati, a Peugeot, a Tata, a truck, even a rickshaw or else, we are in the same seated position and will reach everywhere we want to go, the ganas are there to help and assist us. All this metal will finish in a scrap yard one day just like our bodies in a cemetery, and I never saw the family crying after the lost car, it was not even in their mind, they have other things to do.
Then one day came another insulting allegation in a Sahaj forum : Mother’s second daughter was stealing furniture from Cabella house. How dare she, since everything belongs to SY now ? Of course a few items which rightly belongs to her became a theft. Mother has showered several lucky yogis with presents for years, has the crowd ever felt jealous ? Are we going to ask these yogis now to give everything back and lock it somewhere in the castle, in Pratishtan, or in other properties given to SY ? Not at all, also because everybody understands that Her divine vibrations in objects protect and bring auspiciousness wherever they are kept, be it in X’s house or Y’s house, it does not matter.
What is important is that the « molecular arrangement » of these items are emitting Her sacred vibrations in different places of the world. So, how can we talk in this manner when Shri Mataji’s family gave the majority of their assets to SY including, let’s repeat it, a 30 million dollar mansion in Pratishtan? How many lifetimes do we need to match their generosity ? Why have we fallen so low ? What is happening to us ? Are we any different from Muslims killing the Prophet’s family once He departed ? Not at all it seems…
And now comes the topic of the « family cult ». The Australians stand at the epitome of it as they have been declared worshippers of Sir CP and his second daughter as divine incarnations. The scary picture which is presented of them these days is quite naive and comical, with mesmerising workshops taking place in isolated cells and people coming out completely deprived of their brain faculties, a bit like the American actor Jack Nicholson in the film « one flew over the cuckoo’s nest ».
For those who have not seen the film, he plays, if I my memory is correct, the part of a patient in a psychiatric hospital who is submitted to a brain surgery as a last resort because he is a far too dangerous fellow for the society -something like that- which leaves him as a complete cabbage. I still remember his face after the operation, the way he walks and everything. I can’t stop laughing imagining so many Australian yogis walking like Jack N. around Sydney and other towns with baggy trousers falling half way off their waist and open shirts put the other way round.
Come on dear European friends, and let’s be practical : there is a big gap between worshipping family members and respecting or befriending them. I’ve met a few who are close to Sadhana and before that to Sir CP, and frankly speaking, I find them quite composed and relaxed, not in trance at all, normal and not stressed and agitated like the most heated up who accuse them.
You may tell me : « of course you support Australians because you are in Sadhana’s family ! ». Both Shri Mataji’s daughters know perfectly well that Djamel and I respect them. You’ll never see us writing wrong things on Kalpana just because we are in Sadhana’s family and so should choose a clan. We don’t believe in clans. But we should not be stupid, we should tell things the way we see them, and honestly I’ve not detected any sign in these few Australians showing they wanted to wash Sir CP’s feet when he was still with us, nor have I detected that they will start doing aarti to Sadhana in one year or two like some of us are cheerfully predicting. I have not heard them pouring nasty things about Kalpana either. Their brain does not seem to be churning all the time on the war that is going on.
For those who have not seen the film, he plays, if I my memory is correct, the part of a patient in a psychiatric hospital who is submitted to a brain surgery as a last resort because he is a far too dangerous fellow for the society -something like that- which leaves him as a complete cabbage. I still remember his face after the operation, the way he walks and everything. I can’t stop laughing imagining so many Australian yogis walking like Jack N. around Sydney and other towns with baggy trousers falling half way off their waist and open shirts put the other way round.
Come on dear European friends, and let’s be practical : there is a big gap between worshipping family members and respecting or befriending them. I’ve met a few who are close to Sadhana and before that to Sir CP, and frankly speaking, I find them quite composed and relaxed, not in trance at all, normal and not stressed and agitated like the most heated up who accuse them.
You may tell me : « of course you support Australians because you are in Sadhana’s family ! ». Both Shri Mataji’s daughters know perfectly well that Djamel and I respect them. You’ll never see us writing wrong things on Kalpana just because we are in Sadhana’s family and so should choose a clan. We don’t believe in clans. But we should not be stupid, we should tell things the way we see them, and honestly I’ve not detected any sign in these few Australians showing they wanted to wash Sir CP’s feet when he was still with us, nor have I detected that they will start doing aarti to Sadhana in one year or two like some of us are cheerfully predicting. I have not heard them pouring nasty things about Kalpana either. Their brain does not seem to be churning all the time on the war that is going on.
On the other hand, Turkish yogis befriend Mother’s eldest daughter Kalpana, but are they declared to be her worshippers ? No ! Also the strongest activists in Europe who accuse Sadhana of being worshiped like an incarnation befriend themselves Kalpana too. Are they accused of developing a family cult ? They are not ! How come they are not ???
Again we apply a double standard. If we want to befriend one of Mother’s daughters, well and good, it is not a problem, but it should be done with genuine intentions, and this should not disturb the peace of the collectivity who does not care about siding with one or the other member of the family. However it is a sin if some of us want to divide them, praise one and condemn the other one. What is the secret of our puppeteers leading the show and giving it the orientation they choose to give ?
They manipulate and divide Mother’s family members for their selfish purposes that they only know, but will tell you of course that the problem and the threat for the future of SY comes from the fact that Her daughters are divided. It is cowardly indeed, but they interfere shamelessly in their private affairs to justify their unclean motivations that once again they only know. Djamel and I don’t interfere in their private matters though we are directly associated with them, and will never do so, as we don’t interfere in other yogis’ life. How come some bold people dare do so
On top of that, has Mother allowed us in the past to expose publicly the private matters of yogis or families of yogis She corrected, or threw out of SY for some time or forever ? Yet some of them were a threat to SY and great destroyers of Mother’s work because they and their clans have harmed many yogis psychologically. This is a fact, and many of us could open up on this subject, but this is the past, we forgive, forget and go ahead. This rat race and its techniques to be at the helm of affairs is sad of course, yet comical and could inspire the most talented amongst us for creating a theatre play.
Just imagine : some « bow » at Mother’s eldest daughter Kalpana as a friend, others at Her second daughter Sadhana as a friend, so it appears we are all family worshippers somehow, all Australians in the end. Don’t we realise it is contradictory for the public who is watching the show ? Because in this « bowing business » we don’t understand anymore who can bow, who can not, and whom to ? Who is going to be kicked out by doing so, and who is not ? Such manipulation ! Above all, I’ve never heard the family members boasting about their status, they are so humble about it, which is not the case of some of us when they declare : « do you know who I am ? » just because they have a position in SY or are acquainted to such a person.
I have never heard any family member pretend he/she is a deity of any kind or behave like it. This so-called worshipping business of the family generates anger and heat in some of us, but is worshipping human beings a new thing in SY? Not at all ! Some of our prominent leaders have been worshipped like gods for years by other yogis and are still worshipped, having their court and everything, let’s spare the details. Has this cult been disturbed by yogis writing about them and exposing them ? Not at all because there is wisdom in the majority of us. Everyone awaits patiently that they come out of their dreams and illusions because we still hope things may change one day.
But they should be careful, if not they will end up being false gurus inside our Sangham, if they are not already. And always talking about « cult » what about the secret cult they develop by excluding all the yogis they do not like because they don’t fall at their feet or don’t share the same views ? They feel so threatened and insecure that whoever is not a « yes man » is labelled as an « enemy ». I may sound harsh but when you see some behaviour, this is a subject of concern indeed. Yet it is so petty, incredibly so petty, but big wars on the planet have always started because of pettiness.
To give an example, in 2006, one of them came to Djamel and I and started complaining about Sir CP. Leave apart the complaints, what was most striking was his anger and distress on seeing new yogis, other than those we had always known so far, being appointed to different functions around the foundation or elsewhere. Shocking the way he was taking about these persons, my heart was aching. I thought to myself : « but why not give a chance to other people too ? He’s done a good job so he should rest now ! » I believe in sharing and extending, but maybe I’m wrong.
And when Sir CP dissolved the first council, one of them also very distressed rushed to me some time after our daughter’s wedding saying : « I know what Sir CP is going to do now, he is going to create a new world council and put Djamel (my husband) as the chairman ! ». « Oh, so this is what it is ! » I thought. POWER and being the « FIRST », the eternal painful disease of human beings as soon as they have a position or some success of any kind which is a lingering danger to all of us, and not only coordinators if we are not careful. Of course it was never in Sir CP’s plans, neither in our mind after Shri Mataji had brought us into Her family.
I laughed and reassured him he had nothing to fear from us because we had never been and would never be leaders, coordinators or whatever, Mother was just expecting us to develop family relationships with Her members. But Had it been the case as this person feared, I can imagine easily the tough and rough time a gentle person like Djamel (who has never boasted he was one of the first 10 yogis in London, or he understood things better than everyone else as a result) would have endured, because he was not wanted at all in the « inner circle » like the majority of us.
Last topic : « Shri Mataji’s family members are not yogis, they don’t meditate ! » Can those barking such words be called yogis when their death sentence reflects such competitive, cheap, unhappy, and disturbed attention ? Again some of us in the past have been given responsibilities in SY under the name of « yogis » and « yoginis » but to no avail, because Mother had to throw them out in the end.
Had they ever been yogis ? Probably not, but they mesmerised several of us and were accepted as « maha yogis » for some, and tolerated by the rest. So where does the state of « yogi » start ? The more I go, the more I don’t know myself… Difficult to say… What about our shortcomings which are still there after so many years of practice ? And I include myself in saying so. Still a long way to go for all of us. And what about our children ? Are they yogis ?
Are they not ? Some run away from SY, others misbehave and don’t respect the dharma required from Mother but are allowed to be kept in SY, this and that… Do we throw them out ? Don’t we give them a second, third or fourth chance ? Don’t we have compassion when it comes to our own families ? We can see ourselves how difficult and delicate it is to instil in our children some drops of divine nectar by which they may one day become aware of their true nature. Evolution takes time and is very slow for each one of us, but slowly slowly we are moving forward asking Mother to forgive us and enlighten our path.
So why should this privilege of evolving be refused to Her family members ? In the same way that we are not the same as those we were 10, 20 or 40 years ago when we got our self-realisation, so is it for Her family too. When I see for instance some of us writing confidently that Mother’s daughters do not recognise Her as Shri Adi Shakti, I’m dumbfounded, because have they been close to them ? Have they spoken to them ? Of course they will say that it is enough to check on vibrations.
Well and good, but what about coming a little bit further closer to some family members and experience the quality of their presence and vibrations ? What do we know about their inner state ? What do we know about their relationship with Mother ? Have we shared with them some of their spiritual experiences ? We could be speechless in some examples they give because like all of us they know who Shri Mataji is.
And maybe some of them know better than us who She is, what do we know about it ? Maybe some of them don’t « meditate » as some of us say, but despite that have or experience the Sahaj state we are all looking for through our meditation techniques. Surprising ? Again what do we know ? After all, they have Her genes. If jealousy was not blinding some of us, we could have gatherings including family members, listening to their side of the story too, because they detain fascinating elements about their mother, mother-in-law and grandmother, it is obvious.
Why should we want to ban this if we aim at producing to the future generations a full description of our Sahaj history ? They should write their experiences too as yogis do. We should not cross maryadas towards them just as we should not cross maryadas towards each other either as Mother’s children. If only we accepted to open our hearts to each other like our yuva shaktis do, starting with sharing a simple cup of tea and say : « How are you ? Tell me about you these days ? », listening to each other and integrating more and more people in our heart instead of forming groups and excluding others (this applies not only to coordinators) then our collectivity would be pure magic and joy.
And we need more than ever this magic and joy between us, not dirty politics, if we want to improve or change the state of the outside world today. We are already so fortunate and blessed to be protected in such a dangerous, violent and lost world, which is executing and beheading human beings everywhere around us, so what is the need to behave stupidly and aggressively between us ? Why can’t we just fall into each other’s arms ? Are we so different from one another ?
Now Anand and Fatima have a little boy of 2 years. When I see my cute and innocent grandson, I wonder about his future in SY. Are we really going to « draw a line » between him and the other yogis, just because he has Mother’s genes ? Are we going to spoil his life, or even worse destroy it ? But one thing is sure, if this ever happens (please Mother, don’t let it happen), Sir CP will certainly not be the destroyer. I also feel sad for my daughter because she enjoys so much Sahaj life and was such a happy yuva shakti, mixing with everyone, loving everyone and being loved in return. She has no malice whatsoever in her heart. Now we feel like criminals at times showing up in the collectivity, though we have done nothing wrong, are not plotting against anyone and have remained exactly the same.
As I said, I live in Mumbai presently, our grandson visits us at times. My heart would like to take the little one to Pratisthan like all yogis do with their children when they come to Mumbai, but in this situation I prefer not to, because it would raise fire again… Yet, maybe the day will come back where all family members and yogis will eat and chat in Mother’s properties like in the old days, but for the good reasons this time of pure and genuine love between human beings, without any groups or clans, because groups and clans have killed our first generation unfortunately and are still doing it.
This is the story of us all, born to love each other or at least try - because it is not easy to love everyone around, it is not going to happen in a few years- but instead of that… Sometimes I lose hope for our first generation of yogis. What is history going to write about us one day ? Linda (William) has produced a beautiful collection of volumes relating our best stories with Mother called « Eternally inspiring recollections of our Holy Mother ». Let’s hope there won’t come a dark collection written on us by outsiders called « Eternally sad recollections of the first Sahaji yogis on earth ».
All my love to each of you,
Guillemette.
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